Quotes

Bleh. Quote of the day from me: I hate old men and wolves.

Don't ask me why.

The entire exams so far stinks. I've lost like 14 marks from my BM Pem paper already. And like six marks straight from Sej structure paper. I HATE KEUNGGULAN UNDANG UNDANG AND KEPINCANGAN MASYARAKAT AND PERIBAHASA!

Again, don't ask me why.

Sigh. Supposed to be studying my Physics now. And to makes matter all the more worse, I am totally and utterly blur about the half last chap of Physics. Yes, the one with pd, emf, current... yada yada. I mean, GEE WHIZ HOW DO ALL OF THEM CONNECT WITH ONE ANOTHER?!

Anyway, what i wanted to post here is ...

Oh cool. This is the 100th post in my blog ya know? I just realized that. Whoo! Happy 100th Anniversary Blog of Mine and Emma's!! WOOO!!

Okay fine, getting distracted again.

So what I wanted to say was...

Oh yeah, Al is coming to the blog too ya know? She's going to join soon! As the third proprietor of the blog! Since KIMMY decided not to join. Phooey. Al will be joining once I find out how to invite her coz I forgot how to. Heh.

All right, all right, I'm getting to the real point.

I came across these few quotes that Agan, Evie and me found wayyyy back last year. You see, we were supposed to be preparing for a game called Pass The Message. And well, we were surfing the Net for wacky msgs and we wrote them down. Haha. It's all here in Agan's handwriting because I was too lazy to write then and dictated it to him to write. Merciless soul of mine. Lol.

So here are the quotes. Mind you, only the first three are meaningful, the rest are pure but fun nonsense.

1)Life is not measured by the breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
2) Never think about the mistakes you make, think about the mistakes you will make.
3) To learn to succeed you must first learn to fail.
4) Borrow money from pessimists, they don't expect it back.
5) The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse will get the cheese.
6) Eagles may soar, but weasels don't get sucked into jet engines.
7) My mechanic couldn't repair your brakes, so he made your horn louder.
8) If at first you don't succeed, destroy all evidence that you tried.
9) Smile and the whole world will smile with you, laugh and everyone will think you're on drugs.
10) Roses are red, violets are blue, please flush the toilet, after you.
11) A friend in need is a friend to avoid.
12) I'm a nobody, nobody is perfect, therefore I am perfect.
13) Frogs have it easy, they just eat what bugs them.
14) Roses are red, violets are blue, I thought I was ugly, until I saw you.
15) A bird in the hand is safer than one overhead.
16) Computers can never replace human stupidity.

Ahaha.

Hard to be sure, sometimes I feel so insecure... And love so obscure and distant, remains the cure - Celine Dion

This reaks.

The one time I decided to screw up was the one time everyone decided to do the same thing as I did.

I mean, come on -

Just because I made one stupid mistake this one time in my entire life, I get blasted out of the window by ppl -

Exhibit A:

You of all people should know that!! You are a prefect! YOU ARE HEAD GIRL!

You made your parents liars! Admit it!

... Head Girl in disgrace...

OMG! Head Girl getting demerited!

And you call yourself a prefect! What more a red tie!!

Siaw Hui! ADMIT IT! YOU LIED! AND THIS COMING FROM YOU!

Let me tell you all this, once and for all.

I AM COMPLETELY UTTERLY AND PERFECTLY HUMAN! I MAKE MISTAKES JUST LIKE ANYONE ELSE DOES! WHAT SETS ME APART FROM YOU PEOPLE? MY RED TIE? MY BLAZER? MY WHAT? MY ENTIRE PREFECT REGALIA? MY POST?

Am I supposed to be perfect and oh-so-high-and-mighty? Someone who never screws up in life? Someone who always plays by the damn bloody rules? Someone who is always expected to be a role model? Someone who's supposed to run for president? Someone who's not supposed to get demerited? Someone who's supposed to be what?!

I am human, I tell you, human. I'm not some bloody alien from bloody outer space who's higher and superior than all of you! I'm a girl! I'm a student! I AM ME!

I am me! A person! Not Head Girl! Did I ever want to be Head Girl? Did I ever campaign to be Head Girl? Did I ever demand to be Head Girl?

NO I DIDN"T! IT JUST CAME! AND GEE WHIZ, THE ONE TIME I SCREW UP, THE ONE TIME I MAKE A MISTAKE, EVERYONE JUST HAS TO COME AROUND AND BLAST ME ALL THE MORE BECAUSE OF A STUPID, MEAGRE RED TIE!!

Tell me is it fair?

Is it fair for me and the other first-timers who made such a simple mistake? Is it fair for me? Fair for Kim? Fair for Sjane? Fair for Emm? IS IT FAIR WHEN OTH PPL HAVE DONE THE SAME THING FOR COUNTLESS TIMES AND GOTTEN AWAY SCOT-FREE?!!

I know I'm supposed to be a role model. But this one time I screw up, the whole world has to cast its spotlight on me. This really reaks.

I might have just screwed up all my testimonials, as a student and as a prefect, just because of one stupid blunder.

Tell me, Van, can you tell me in my face now that the only expectations that I should have are for myself? Now that you know what the entire world expects of me?

CAN YOU?!

Kids Say the Darndest Things

Hey, emma updated!! Go girl!

Anyway, I don't have much time right now. Having to study later and all that. But I got this cool inspiration on kids (don't ask me why) so I'm blogging stuff I've learnt over the years (esp how to deal with kids and their annoying questions.) So here goes.

First of all, do you ever notice kids hate the other sex? Here are the few examples:

1) During some church children camp, me and the other musicians (all of us teens btw mixed girls and guys) were sitting at the back listening to the course being conducted for the kids...
Teacher: Do you know what love is?
Kids: Ahhh...
Teacher: It's like next time when you grow up; guys you will fall in love with a girl and girls you will fall in love with a guy and get married, ok?
Kids: (extremely loud): YUCK!!!
Me and Sam look at Joshua, Daniel and Jonathan and we all burst out laughing.

2) Me and Rebecca were in the church office together with one of the children teachers when the little girls burst into the room...
Girls: Teacher! Teacher! We can't stand the boys!
Me and Becca: (look at each other amused)
Teacher: Nevermind the boys.
Girls: Teacher! We don't want to sleep with them tonight!
Me: (Drinking water splurts it all out onto Becca who's giving an equally weird look and going: WHAT? GIRLS SLEEP WITH GUYS?)
Teacher: Don't worry. You don't need to sleep with the guys.
Girls: Yeah, we don't wanna share mattresses with them.
Me: (splutter cough and gag) What?! Share WHAT?!
Becca: What's with ?!!
Teacher: Stop thinking what you're thinking you two.
Like it's our fault that we think that way. WE"RE TEENS?!

But then again, there are kids who like the opposite sex...

1) There's this little girl called Leticia and a little boy called Bryant. Completely non-related and they're just really cute and cuddly kids. So they love chasing each other around church...
Me and Sam: Look at them go. (look at the two mad kids) They really love chasing each other around.
Lydia: Yeah, I know.
Lilian: (stoops and catches Leticia) Hello.
Leticia: (struggles) Lemme go, lemme go!
Lilian: You're so cute...
Me: Uhh Lilian? I think she wants to get down and continue her little game with Bryant?
Lilian: No she doesn't.
Me: Leticia, do you want to come back down to chase Bryant around the church?
Leticia: (nods enthusiastically) YES
Me: Ya see? (takes Leticia out of Lilian's arms and puts her down to begin chasing the guy again.)

Oh oh. Btw, that kid, Leticia has ever been caught by Lydia's sister kissing little Bryant on the cheek under the kitchen table in church. OMG

OH YEAH. And once Leticia went up to Zoe (who has a lil brother called Ben) and told Zoe: When I grow up, I'm going to marry Ben. And Zoe was like: W H A T?!!

Gosh, that's so funny la. And wait till you hear more stuff about Ben...
1) It was Ben's birthday once and he really wanted me to go to his bday party (God knows why)...
Ben: Mummy, can she (points to me) come to my party?
Ben's Mum: Umm, Ben I'm not sure whether she wants to come...
Ben: Sure she wants to. DOn't you?
Me: Uhh... sure?
Ben: Can she come? Can she come?
Ben's Mum: But Ben, she's too old for you.
Me: ...
Becca: (next to me) OMG, did she just say what she just said? DID SHE SAY YOU"RE TOO OLD FOR HIM? THAT SOUNDS SO WRONG.
Me: Oh shut up you.

2) When me, Becca, Sam and his mum were talking...
Mum: So he was talking to this prostitute on the plane...
Ben: Mum, what's a prostitute?
Mum: Umm... well she's someone who does something that's wrong for Christians.
Me and Sam: (laughing like hell)
Ben: What does she do?
Becca: (eager) She does things to guys which only married ppl can do!
Ben: What do married people do?
Mum: Something intimate.
Ben: What's intimate?
Mum: Ben, we'll talk about this another time okay?
Me and Sam: (laughing till we're just about dead)

Oh and wait till you hear about my cousin, Matthew.
1) Once I was reading him Baa Baa Black Sheep...
Me: Okay, Matt, now you've heard it, repeat the rhyme to me.
Matt: Baa baa black sheep have you any wool? Yes sir yes sir three bags full.
Me: Good, continue.
Matt: One for the MONSTER!!!
Me: What? NO! One for the master!
Matt: (gets up and skips merrily around) MONSTER! MONSTER! MONSTER!
Me: Oh forget it.

2) When we were playing some Bob the Builder computer game...
Matt: I set easy easy one for you to play ok? I scared you can't play.
Me: ??!!!!!
Is he underestimating my intelligence?!

3) When we were passing a police station, his dad wanted to shut him up so...
Dad: Matt, if you don't keep quiet, we're going to ask the police to lock you up in this police station. And you'll get nothing but curry chicken rice all day.
Matt: (pretends to think for a while) Can I ask them to hold the curry? I like chicken rice that way.
Dad: That's not the point!!!

4) When I was reading some mag with Matt, we came across a page with models...
Me: So which one do you think is pretty?
Matt: (picks the most skimpy looking one)
Me: Matt!!!
Matt's Mum: (referring to Matt's Dad) Dear, what have you been teaching him?!!

Lol. OH and Kim said smth about her cousin...
Kim's cousin: Kim, why is the sky blue?
Kim: I dunno.
Cousin: Why is the grass green?
Kim: I dunno.
Cousin: Why is it raining?
Kim: I DUNNO! STOP BUGGING ME!

Haha. Kids say the darndest things.

Funny how things work out

Funny how things work out don't they?
One day you feel like punching a person in the face
The next day you still feel like jabbing the person in the eye :P
And then the next, you realize -
Hey I still think of the person as a friend

Funny how things work out don't they?
You think the worst of your enemies have forgiven you
And then once you turn your back -
There they are with knifes out at the ready again
Don't they ever get fed up of hounding you?

Funny how things work out don't they?
Nothing ever goes to plan as a friend of mine just said
You expect things to happen the way you want them to
But not only do they not do so
They happen in the worst opposite way possible

Funny how things work out don't they?
You get an eye infection one day
Then you get fever, flu and sore throat the next
And when you recover -
You wake to find that exams are three days away

Funny how things work out don't they?
Logic and reason tell you that -
Having a certain person in the midst of your life right now?
Isn't the best thing to ever happen to you -
But there seems to be something that tugs at you
Urges you to not hold back
Urges you to lunge and just go for it
Urges you to just accept the presence of the person

Funny how things work out don't they?
Some people say that they'll be your friends for a lifetime
Some say: Let's be friends forever
But they go back on their word
Why?
Because well let's face it
The world ain't perfect
And such humans exist:
Humans that pledge their loyalty to you and then go around twisting your words
And spreading rumors let's not forget
And turn your other true friends against you and vice versa

Funny how things work out don't they?
You think you're the worst human scum on earth
You think you're the most undeserving of the human race
You think you're the biggest fool in the whole world
But still God grants you the best thing ever
A great family
And great friends along with the package

Thanks guys! To all my great friends out there: (in no particular order): (from school) Kim, Emm, Alison, Noel, Akmal, Cher, Van, Jas, Sat, Kok, Sing Yue, MTYP, Sjane, Sally, Yee Ying, Jess, Elane, Tan
(from church): Evie, Agan, Mike, Joven, Zoe, Becca, Rach, Lydia, Sam

And of course, my family! My dad, my mum, my bro (even if they do get on my nerves sometimes.) :P

Without you guys, I wouldn't be where I would be today.

And I wouldn't be the person I am today.

People say that I'm a strong person, with my own opinions, heaving my responsiblities well and handling my problems superbly.

I say that's because I have a great bunch of friends to help me with my load. Anytime, anywhere, everyday.

~A tribute to my best batch of friends and family I'd ever have

Lost Without You

Okay, there are three top reasons why I'm posting another song on even if I know that no one is going to comment or read or anything (and that's not a hint for you to do so mind you) :-
1) Sing Yue asked me why I haven't updated my blog.
2) Noel apparently thinks that the above title: Lost Without You (which is also my MSN nick) is a clear indication that I'm in love though I am not. And neither am I in denial Noel! So I said I was going to show him the lyrics of the song to prove that it's just a line from a song that I currently like. So there.
3) The blog's getting kind of dull without any posts on and I was bored. :)

This is a good song btw. You should listen to it.

Lost Without You - Delta Goodrem

I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
A little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Coz I believe that we can work things out

I thought I had all the answers never giving in
But since you've gone I admit that I was wrong

All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you
I need you by my side
If we ever say that we'll never be together
And we ended with goodbye
Don't know what I'd do
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way
But all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you

How am I ever gonna get rid of these blues
I'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You're the only thing that's on my mind

Oh my bed's so cold at night
And I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right
No I'm not too proud to say

(Chorus)

If I could only hold you now
And make the pain just go away
Can't stop the tears from running down my face

(Chorus)

Joke of the day:
Emmeline: (to Alison) You just draw the choppy seas la.
Alison: What? Chimpanzees?
Emmeline: ...

Sick

Note to self: FIND OUT WHERE THE HECK I GOT THIS STUPID EYE INFECTION!!

I'm telling you, my right eye is so infected that it's bloodshot red and it's swollen almost shut. But thank God, it's opened halfway already. And you know, my eye actually leaks sticky discharge that glues my eye shut when I'm sleeping. Up until the extent I actually have to yank my eye forcefully (and painfully might I add) just to get it open in the morning. Ouch. It hurts just like an eye would hurt if you got punched in it. Owwww...

And then got fever again. Phooey. 39. 4 degrees or smth. Thank God I sweat it out until left 37. smth now. Phew. You know last night? I slept in two different shirts want to know why? I sweated out through out the night, drenching both shirts front and back. Oh and my pillows? Both of them drenched with sweat. That was HOW much I sweat. Grrr...

Oh and there's the fact that everytime I see food I feel like puking. And the fact that I puke my entire guts out when I have only drunk Ribena the entire day.

AND THERE"S THE BLOODY FACT THAT THE STUPID BLOODY EXAMS ARE COMING!! AND I HAVEN"T TOUCHED ANYTHING YET!! BESIDES FORM FOUR CHEM I HAVEN"T STUDIED ANYTH!! Dang, I was supposed to progress but NO this stupid eye has to take the stupid infection BECAUSE MY STUPID IMMUNITY SYSTEM FAILED ME! Curse you phagocytes! Curse you monocytes! Curse you lymphocytes! Aren't you supposed to produce antibodies by now? Aren't you supposed to be eating the stupid virus or smth? Aren't you... Okay we're getting too technical here.

This sucks. *sniffles cough sniffles* It really does.

CONGRATS!

Congrats Alison!!

I know how much you wanted to go to the finals in KL (eventhough it's during exams) and I know how much you wanted to win... so congrats girl! You managed it! You did it! YOU"RE REPRESENTING S"WAK IN THE FINALS!!

I'm so proud of you my girl! *sob* I'm so proud!

So go, and make all of us proud yeah? WE"LL BE RIGHT HERE CHEERING FOR YOU (though given a chance and free tickets we would go to KL too hehe)

Congratulations and salutations... and oh yeah, good luck for the finals! BEAT ALL THEIR ASSES THERE (muahahaha) AND GO ONTO REPRESENT MSIA IN THE INTERNATIONAL LEVEL K?! Whooot!! Go Al! Go Al! WHOO!!

Okay, this is how crazy I can be when I'm trying to get out the murderous rage in me right now.

Have you ever?

Before I begin...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE!!!!!

Love you lots girl! Muaks. And many happy returns of the day!

And don't forget about the rest of us sixteen-plus-year-old ppl when you're learning driving eh!!

Now that the perky part is done (heh) here comes the morbid one.

Have you ever felt stabbed in the heart one time or another? Or sometimes even in the back? I'm sure you have. It pretty much stinks doesn't it? Coz if you, for one, think that said stabbing was utterly cool, you're either weird (very might I add) or you're one who loves doing that to others.

Then again, have you ever felt like you've known someone for years because of the time you've been friends with that person, but then after something rudely slaps you in the face (because of said friend) you suddenly realize that you don't know anything about the person at all? Now this feeling, maybe you don't get it all too often.

Have you ever felt really stupid and wished that you could duplicate yourself, so you can get your clone to kick you in the backside? Have you ever? Because you feel like you've been the world's B I G G E S T fool and you really hate the feeling? Because you actually believed someone's intentions were genuine but then something happens, and you realize that hey, this person ain't geniune, he or she's getting me to do something so that they can reap their benefits off me! Because sometimes, the world pretty much stinks and that, something that you wanted to believe in, was just a big, utter hoax?

Have you ever felt like, "I wish I hadn't done this... if not this wouldn't have happened?" Plenty of times am I right? The world is made up of If Only's. And right now, I'm toying with If Onlys in my head. If only I had not asked, I wouldn't be smarting right now.

Have you ever felt like you're a failure when it comes to relationships? Esp friendships? Because you know what? I do. And you want to know why? Because though I have a really good bunch of friends like Jas, Van, Kim, Noel, Emm, Sat, Ak, Al, Kok and the rest which I'm too lazy to type, and though they will never betray me, there are a lot of others that will. There are a lot of others that I make friends with over the years (and our frienship is getting weaker) and there are those whom I'm sort of forced to make friends with while doing certain work. And these friends (haha) well they don't feel the urge to remain loyal and all giving and understanding. They, however, feel the urge to use, manipulate and twist you around and around when you apparently think that they were trying to make you happy. Until reality slaps you really hard on the face that is.

Have you ever felt like you wanted to stab the person in the face when he or she is telling you something that you couldn't believe was possible? Sure, you do. I mean sometimes I feel like I want to strangle Kim for annoying me one too many times. But let me tell you this, this is actually the first time, I have the urge to just box someone in the face (well actually third time heh) because of what the person was saying. But you know what? I couldn't. Coz there were people around us and I had to keep my calm. Wanna know why? Because I'm supposed to be a role model everywhere I am. In school (Head Prefect) in church (Youth Leader) and at home (frankly I dunno why but my parents insist on it.)

Have you ever felt like you're a walking bad luck charm? Because you know what I do. I've just been stabbed last year (very badly might I add) by several people I thought were close to me. And you know, I'm supposed to forgive them. But I need time to do it. I've tried praying to God to help me, believe me, but even then I'm still struggling to. I know I have to rely on Him and not on my inner strength, but I'm still learning how to, I'm still learning how to forgive. Because you know what? I've gone through so many stages of hurt that forgiveness seems to be the soul of my life now. And I haven't done entirely too well... And wonder of wonders, someone hurts me again. Wow.

Have you ever felt like you just want to shut out the world? Have you ever felt like you just wanted your happy friends to just shut up? Have you ever felt like you just want to throw off the smile on your face and go, "LOOK! SIAW HUI"S NOT HAPPY! SHE"S JUST FREAKING PRETENDING SHE IS!? Have you ever felt like you want to shut yourself into a room and cry? Have you ever felt like you want to push away all your friends so you can just be alone? Have you ever felt like you want your heart, your very essence of what makes you human to be gone so that you can be spared so many hurts? Have you ever felt like you don't want to be Head Prefect because everything bad suddenly happens to you when you do just like it's a bad luck post? Have you ever felt like you just want to run around like a super idiot, crying your eyeballs out and not have to remain dignified because you're supposed to be a role model? Have you ever felt like you wanted to spill your heart out to someone close to you but you can't because they're supposed to be happy and you want them to remain that way?

Above all, tell me this, please do...

Have you ever felt like you want to be someone else? Someone else who doesn't face so much hurt and pain. To be anyone else but you?

I sure do.

Everyone says that being me is cool, that I'm lucky that I'm Wong Siaw Hui, that I'm lucky because I'm me.

But let me tell you this, I'm not.

Right now, I'll give anything to be any of you.

Unwritten

Just discovered that my bro downloaded two songs onto the comp just before he left for Melb. And I'm listening to it and I go, hey, these songs are pretty cool.

Hold Me - Savage Garden

Hey
If we can't find a way out of these problems
Then maybe we don't need this
Standing face to face
Enemies at war we build defences
And secret hiding places...

I might need you to hold me tonight
I might need you to say it's all right...

Hey
More than these angry words I hate this silence
It's getting so loud
Well I want to scream
But bitterness has silenced these emotions
It's getting hard to breathe
So tell me isn't happiness
Worth more than a golden diamond ring?...
But lately I've been down on my kness
Not looking for a miracle
But a reason to believe...

What About Me? - Shannon Noll

What about me?
It isn't fair
I've had enough...
Can't you see, I wanna live
But you just take more than you give...

She's been waiting back there
Waiting for her dreams
Her dreams walk in and out
They never stop
Well she's not too proud to cry out loud
She runs to the streets and she screams...

Now I'm standing on the corner
All the world's gone home...
And I'm feeling cold and alone
I guess I'm lucky, I smile a lot
But sometimes I wish for more than I've got...

What about me...
What about me?

Some more photos!

Since mtyp asked me to blog and since emm is not ol right now to help me with our current story (together with Al of course but al's not around :) And yes, the story is the one that we want to showcase to you guys but emm isn't here so we can't even give you the introduction of the story and basically to the characters. Haiz..

So I'm here. Blogging. With pics instead of words. Coz well, I'm just too lazy to write words.

The only thing I want to write is the story!! WAAA!! EMM!! Get your butt here la!

Pff... I could do it on my own. But thing is I've run out of ideas for the dirty little secrets that each character has and which the readers will discover. OOPS! Too much said. I'll shuddup now and give you the photos from Al's bday bash.

And that's the three of us amigos against a red background. The gorgeous looking one in the middle is JASMINE!! And the one in white is me, like DUH. And the one in purple looking like a royal queen with jewels around her neck (heh) is KIM! Me bestest pal!

Me and a very sweaty Emm. We were doing very - umm - vigorous - uhh - exercise weren't we, emm? But I didn't sweat that much! Haha. Yep, that's us. The two proprietors of this blog here.

Yep, and that's also us outside the dining hall. The furthest guy to the left is Aidan, our class resident genius. And the other guy is NOEL THE SQUIRREL! WHOOT! First time he debuts in a photo eh.The one with the flower print blouse and white pants is Van. I'm the one in white, leaning out behind Van. The one in gorgeous pink is Al. Next to her in pants is Chin Boon. The one with the sash around her waist is Jas. Behind Al, is Kim's head peeking out. Between Kim and me, Emm.

And that's us at Al's birthday party. From left to right (standing) Van, Lilian and Cher. Sitting (from left to right) Me, Emm, Alison (the birthday girl!) and Ak.

So here's the joke of the day:

Tan: It's Wizard of O Z Wins. Everyone knows that.

Wins: What? Wizard of Ox?

Tan: (laughs like she wants to die) No no... Wizard of O ZZZZ (emphasis on Z)

Wins: Fine. Wizard of O Zett (pronounces the Z as in the Z in the alphabet).

Me and Tan: (Burst out laughing helplessly)

The heart is where it all begins... doesn't it?

Lost for words, with all to say, indeed.

Of cats and statements

First of all, the statements.

Statement 1: To our very own Squirrel Noel, I AM NOT LIVING IN DENIAL! YOU ARE! SO DON"T PRETEND THAT I AM OR THAT YOU AREN"T!

Statement 2: To Akmal, wait till I pull your tie back and whack you so hard with my mine AGAIN.

Statement 3: To Van, DING DONG THE WITCH IS DEAADDDD. Okay fine, that wasn't a statement. It was a lyric from the Wizard of Oz song. But still...

Statement 4: To Alison, you seeeee??!! It was a good thing I didn't let you drag me to that public speaking thing. YOU SEE YOU SEE!!

Statement 5: To Kim, you are SOO not cute so please do not try to act cute or say that cartoony "haba, haba" thing again. It's killing me. :P

Statement 6: To Yee Ying and Jas, HAPPY BE-EARLY BIRTHDAY! YOU"RE SWEET SEVENTEEN!! WHOOT!! And you can finally learn to drive car unlike me. Phooey.

Statement 7: To Khang Wee, I seriously need to get a receptionist to attend to you. And you seriously, SERIOUSLY, need to stop snapping your fingers everytime you want to get my attention. I have a NAME you know?!

Well that's about it.

Okay. Here are is the main bulk of content up.

Warning: All cat lovers out there, leave immediately. Or stay and get hurt by what I'm going to say.

Apologies: I'm sorry Van, Cher and Agan and all the other cat owners and cat lovers out there for what I'm about to say.

Complaint: I HATE CATS! Hate them, loathe them, want them to get out of my SIGHT! Grr... they used to be cute, those stray cats outside my house. They used to look at me with those adoring eyes and mew so sweetly. And then, they turned mad. Wild. Stupid. Idiotic. And all those other negative adjectives.

Why?

Well, let me see.

At 12 midnight (not all the times but sometimes) they start mewing. Want to know why? Because they want to mate. Geeezzz!! Why want to mate in the middle of the night I also don't know. The only thing to do at midnight (for me) is to CATCH UP ON SLEEP YOU UNGRATEFUL MISCREANTS!! See there is this white male cat which is simply and utterly and absolutely obsessed with this tabby female cat. All he has been doing is to follow her around everywhere and like guard her when she sleeps, guard her when she eats, tails her everywhere and I mean everywhere. For one thing, when she pees, he pees. And guess where they pee? IN MY SHOERACK!!

So at midnight, they start mewing. The guy will go like purring in this really seductive (it's annoying to me la) way to the female. And for a while there will be like purring for a long while. And then they start fighting, real bad. They'll start hissing and spitting (which is even worse mind you) and then I will get out onto the balcony and either 1) start barking like a crazed dog which works most times mind you (they scamper away and knock over dustbins) or 2) yell at them, "GET LOST YOU IRRITATING ANIMALS! I WANT TO SLEEEEEPPPPP!!!! (which also works temporarily)

Then, they absolutely love sneaking into my house. And hide under my low coffee table when I'm watching TV. So, when I extend my leg and move the table slightly, the cat bounds up and gives me a shock of my life. YES, I ALMOST TOPPLED INTO MY GLASS COFFEE TABLE!! Imagine that.

And, when my bro was back here. They love to start their - umm - courting mews when we are watching a movie! SO instead of hearing the actors go, "I think we should go there. We should check the place out. There might be something that awaits us in there." The dialogue on screen goes something like, "I think we should - meooooowwwwwwww - there. We should - hisss hissss scratch - place out. There might be - MEEEOOWWW HIIISSSSSS SCCCRATTCCCHHHHH - in there." HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO WATCH A MOVIE FILLED WITH HALF MEOWS AND HALF HUMAN WORDS??!!

Hmph. And guess what? Finally the female consented to mate. Just recently, mind you. And guess what? SHE"S PREGNANT. I'm telling you. She's pregnant with the next generation of miscreants! SHE REALLY IS!! And I thought that both her and her mate would be the end of annoying felines but apparently, they decided TO BREED AND HAVE SOME MORE IDIOTIC CATS AROUND!! No... my nightmare is really coming true. Just imagine... six more kittens to handle? To kick out of the house, to clean up after their pee, to feed them to make sure they stop meowing and to listen to them serenade me to sleep.

THIS IS SO TOTALLY UNFAIR!

ANYONE, who adores cats, PLEASE PLEASE!! Come and take them away. I beg of you!

I hate cats. Last time when Van or Agan described their cats to me (especially Agan's kitten) I used to say they were cute.

APPARENTLY I WAS WRONG.

So wrong.

Picture Perfect (2)

The sequel...

And that's us, kicking kungfie butt. Hehe. From left to right: Alison, me (or rather part of my leg as JESSICA is blocking me) Jess, Van, Ying, Cher and Emm (yeah, the only one with the tie on).

And that's me professing my undying love for Vanessa. Sob* How romantic. NOT. :P

Muahahaha. See the Heil Hitler signs? That's what my faithful minions are doing. Muahaha. I'm Hitl - I mean HUitler. My followers will follow me to the ends of the earth. They will go wherever I go, do whatever I do. Why? BECAUSE I AM HUITLER. And why was I given that name? Because I'm Head Girl. Geez. Stupid reason right? But still, I gain eternal respect. NYAHAHAHA.

And that's all guys! Hope you enjoyed the pics.

Oh yeah. And remember to continuing tuning in to the blog. Coz me and Emma have a nice story coming up for you... ;)

Picture Perfect

Yes!! I found out how to upload pics onto the blog!!

I know I'm a dunderhead la ok?!

So here goes the pics. First of all, from school when we were having Kerja Amal...

Hehe. Here's Emm and me.

Heard of the Leaning Tower of Pisa? Well this here is the Leaning Tower of Heads! The pose was suggested by Cherling. So (from left to right) me, Cher (whose face I'm partially blocking), Muz, Emm, Tan, Sat and finally Akmal. Haha. Cher kept saying that she wished ppl wouldn't see her pimple. And her wish is now granted. Thanks to me. I feel so proud. :P

That's Jess hugging Emm. (Daughter hugging Mother) Remember the Dean family thing? Yep, that's it. Awww, they're sweet aren't they?

(from left to right) Jas and Van and if you look closely, you can see Muz and Emm's legs behind them. You see those two goons (heh) were running as fast as they could to get into the pic but they failed. MUAHAHAHA.

And there's (from left to right) Emm, Kim, Sally, Jessica (with the peace sign) and Jas

For reasons unknown, the stupid blog refuses to upload anymore photos. Pff... I'm sure that the limit has NOT been reached yet.

So I'll continue in the next post...

Time

Take an hour glass and overturn it.

Watch the sand run down.

With each grain of sand, it means each hour of my precious time is being lost; time so precious that it carries with it each memory that I have accorded for every moment of my life.

Time so precious that I'm deciding whether or not I should spill my guts out, lie back and watch it. It will be either I get rewarded for spilling my guts or I will be devastitangly given a blow in the stomach.

The world is waiting for me to take it on...

And more specifically, a challenge....

That will either leave me feeling crushed or triumphant.

Enough said.

Competition

A little competition never hurt me.

I thrive on that stuff... it pushes me to my limits.

A little competition never hurt me.

Bring it on... never forget that I'm older, never forget I do have advantage over you. You know that don't you?

A little competition never hurt me.

But then again, this one is way out of my league and one that I've never even tried before.

A little competition never hurt me...

Although sometimes it pushes me to my breaking point and within me now, there's a feeling of dread that I will lose this time. Big time.

A little competiton never hurt me...

Or will it finally do?

The Stars Shine Down

Van, I know I promised you a poem entitled The Stars Shine Down.

But I realized that poems are not my forte. And that I'm better at story-writing (at least better than poem-writing.)

But this story has a poem too. HAHA Im weird.

So here goes the world debut (sounds cool eh? :P) of The Stars Shine Down.

P.S. I think it's really soppy. THAT"S WHY I STRUGGLED THROUGH TWO HOURS TO WRITE IT!

It was supposed to be on friendship. But NOOO Van wanted it to be love. So here it is.

Oh yeah, and leave comments ya?

The Stars Shine Down
Written by: Wong Siaw Hui

The rosy hue of the evening sky faded away; leaving behind the growing shadows to steal the last rays of light.
Up on the crest of a hill that time itself forgotten, sat the lone figure of a girl, contemplating all that had past and all that was to be.
An old, leather-bound diary lay abandoned in her lap as her fingers absent-mindedly ran down the cool spine of the book, feeling the chill beneath them. Tears began to well up in her eyes and frustrated, she wiped them away with the grimy back of her hand.
If only I had seen –
If only I hadn’t been so blind –
If only – if only –
The tears finally broke through and she could feel her heart give way as she cried, yearning for a chance to start all over, yearning for what had been lost to find the way back to her. Deep down, she wanted to believe that with morning, the sun would bring new hope for a new day. But she knew; all too well, she knew that when tomorrow’s sun rose, yesterday’s tears would not even have dried.
How could have things gone so wrong –
If only I could start all over -
A new wave of tears washed over her, unrelenting in their travel down her cheeks just as the tinkling laughter of children filled her ears, drawing her back to the past; back to where it all began –

*

They are simply inseparable, the neighborhood declared, Simply inseparable.
Who are?
Oh for goodness sakes, Luke Owens and Marianne Wiles of course.
Indeed –
The day Marianne’s father had walked out of her life, Luke had walked in to hers.
The moment her father had slammed the front door behind him, she had known that he had long since gone beyond the point of no return. Her mother had sat crying in the corner of the living room, her face as pale as death. She simply hadn’t known what to do except to run out after her father, begging him; calling him to come back. She ran and ran till her shaky knees gave way, sending her crashing to the ground, scraping the knees as she went.
She had cried out not because of the raw pain of her grazed knees, but because of the pain of desertion.
And yet, he never once looked back.
She lay in the cloud of dust, squinting pathetically, trying to convince herself that her father was still there in front of her, inviting her into his embrace.
But what she saw instead was the quiet little boy who lived down the street.
What happened? the little boy asked in that steady voice of his, Why are you lying in the mud?
Marianne burst into an influx of tears.
My papa left me, she sobbed, scarcely believing what she was saying, He – he always said I was his little girl and now he left me – Papa’s gone away –
The little boy’s face softened as he looked into those tear-filled hazel eyes.
Umm, look the ice-cream man’s coming. Maybe I can buy you an ice-cream and make you feel better. What flavor do you want? Cho –
Something happened that day that neither little Luke nor tiny Marianne could ever explain. But there was something about Luke; perhaps his sturdiness or his willingness to make her feel better, that propelled the muddy Marianne towards him.
Before the little boy knew what had happened, the completely grimy Marianne has thrown her arms right around him and sobbed into his chest, feeling somewhat comforted.
Perhaps it was the way that Marianne has completely entrusted herself to him or perhaps it was the open vulnerability in her that had seized Luke’s heart that very instant, making him swear to her on that day that he would always protect her no matter what.
Somewhere deep within the little Marianne, she had completely abandoned herself to Luke’s words; something told her that his promise to her would be proven time over time again as the years went by.
But it was also on that day, that the tiny girl acquired the fear of rejection. She swore to herself that she would never open up her heart to anyone just in case she ended up like her distraught mother.
And secretly she feared the day when she would open herself up with such vulnerability again –

*

The friendship between Luke and Marianne lasted for years, growing stronger with time. He was not only her best buddy but also her elder brother. And Luke, well, the guys understood him as the boy who enjoyed the smaller Marianne tagging along with him and that he thought of her as the little sister he never had.
And then things began to grow complicated –
If you were to ask Marianne the exact time and date when she exactly fell in love with Luke, she wouldn’t be able to tell you the answer.
But one thing was for sure, she had begun to think of him as more than a brother and definitely, more than a friend.
But like they always say, there always is the tiniest of hitch in things –
The time had come for Marianne to open her heart again and to face the possibility of rejection again.
But she could not do it – she would never admit to Luke how much she loved him.
To do such a thing, was considered a folly for herself. Her main principle in life had been instilled since her father left her: Never open yourself up for hurt and you will not be hurt.
Time went on and with each passing day, she realized that it was getting harder and harder to think of Luke as just a friend.
Perhaps I should tell him and risk getting hurt – At least I can get on with my life –
But what if he doesn’t like me? What if he thinks of me as a friend? As a sister?
If I tell him – he’ll look at me all weird and we’ll start drifting apart. And then I’ll lose the best guy I have ever known.
And with it the first guy and probably the last that I will ever fall for.
Her heart tore again and again whenever they were together but so resolved was she, that her confessions never left the confines of her heart.
And then the fateful day came: Luke was going to leave for England to further his studies for a total of four years.
The ache that was in her as she watched him walk towards the departure hall was one that was so painful that she didn’t want to think about it.
And then just before he reached the immigration officer, he turned around and smiled a half-smile.
I’m gonna miss you Marianne.
And the look in his eyes was so imploring and there was just something about it that made her want to break down and to tell the truth.
They stood there for a long time before with a sigh, he turned and broke off eye contact.
He walked through the doors.
And left behind a Marianne whose heart was already shattered into pieces.

*

Marianne was in Luke’s house, helping his mother out when an uniformed officer from God-knows-where had showed up at the door, requesting for entrance to the house.
Mrs. Owens?
Yes?
I’m very sorry, but the plane your son was on? It crashed and there were no survivors
A Niagara-fall like roar rang in her ears and grew louder and louder. Colours began to swirl before her eyes and she thought, Oh God no, oh God no. It can’t be – it can’t be and to think I never said -
And that was when Marianne blacked out.

*

When she came to, she had vomited all over Mrs. Owen’s expensive Persian carpet. Leaving behind a distraught mother who had just lost her only son, Marianne had lunged blindly into Luke’s room, not knowing what she was intending to find.
And then her eyes fell onto the open diary on Luke’s desk, the diary she had bought him for his tenth birthday.
She collapsed onto the chair in front of the desk.
Impulse took over and she glanced down at what had been written in the diary.
And then she started to cry.

*

Tonight, the diary was open to the same page.
But now the tears had dried.
Marianne looked down at the poem written in that familiar slanted writing of Luke’s and she forced back tears.

The Stars Shine Down
By Luke Owens
Dedicated to Marianne Wiles

Wish that we could be,
More than just friends
Wish that my heart would stop,
Aching when you’re near.

The agony of this love,
Or so the wounded declare
Used to laugh about it,
Until I fell for you

And tonight
The stars shine down on me
And I know,
That I want you right here with me
Under these dazzling heavens
Where forever meets no end –

Cowardice is my forte
Rejection is my bane
I could never tell you
How much you mean to me

I’ve given you my word
That I will always protect you
But now all I want to do
Is to give you all of me

And tonight,
The stars shine down on me
And I know,
That I want you right here with me
Under these dazzling heavens
Where forever meets no end –

A faint smile touched Marianne’s lips as she extracted a pen from her blouse pocket and began to write –

The Stars Shine Down
By Marianne Wiles
Dedicated to Luke Owens

If only you had asked
I would have given you my heart
If only I had asked
To be part of your world

But something held us back
From our very destinies
If only fate was kinder
If only love had drawn us –

And tonight,
The stars shine down on me
And I know,
That you are right here with me
Under these dazzling heavens
Where forever meets no end -

...

What do you call that feeling that saps you of all your energy?

Oh yeah that's right.

The really sickening feeling that you've got to study after the next six minutes are up.

Saveeeeee meeeeeeeeeee...