Busy

Hmmph... I dunno why I'm so into updating this blog.

But who cares?

LOL

Yeah, anyway, today has been a busy week. REALLY busy. What with three tests and all.

Speaking of tests... I HATE ADD MATHS!!!! I left out two sub questions and I HAD ONE MORE STEP TO FINISH OFF ANOTHER QUESTION!!! I found the value of r and was going to find the value of a THROUGH ONE MORE STEP MIND YOU!! And then, Mrs Ngu was like, "Put down your pens!" And then I sneaked away, trying to scrawl sommore, but she was like, "SIAW HUI NO MORE WRITING!" And I was thinking, "Darn, why couldn't she have looked somewhere else but me..."

Oh well, life goes on... yeah... life goes on with another Physics, Chem and Bio tests next week. THE TEACHERS ARE OUT TO GET US MAN!!! Garrrrrr...

Hmm here are a coupla jokes I remember from class this last few days...

1) Me: Hey Alison, do you have paper?
Alison: What? You want vinegar?
2) Me: Kim do you have any paper?
Kim: What you want rubber? SIAW HUI! DON"T SAY RUBBER! (don't ask me why)

While we were playing captain's ball in P.E. class, my team has only three girls and three boys. The guys were Sing Yue, Kok Ming and Kai Lun. And the girls were me, Van and Alison. ALL of which got injured in the game. First of all..

1) The ball was being passed to the opposing goalkeeper. Kok Ming leaps upwards and knocks the ball out of his hands... and right into Vanessa's face. At which, her glasses went senget and she gave a dazed smile. HAHA. Actually it was quite cute... Alison said so too. And we started laughing at her... something we shouldn't have done...
2) For the next thing we knew, Alison had the ball. And while trying to escape two very tall guys, crashed onto the floor with the guys nearly trampling over her. To which she just sat and screamed while the sideliners (Noel I think) yelled, "Oi! Don't bully girls la!" I started laughing and then said, "All the girls in our team got injured all except me!" which I shouldn't have said because...
3) The ball was flying the air towards the opposing goalkeeper. At the very SAME time, Kok Ming and I leap for the ball, crash into each other. I went hurtling over double benches (IT"S PAINFUL TRUST ME) and slammed right into the floor, my palm catching onto the very sharp groove for the sliding hall doors.
Lesson learnt: DON"T LAUGH AT OTHERS!

At Block D...
Kok Ming hauls a couple of bags out of a van (latest model or somewhere there) and I decide to close the door (you know the one which slides)
But upon heaving and heaving, it just won't close.
Then I realized someone is yelling at me.
I turn and hear the driver shouting:
DON"T TRY TO CLOSE IT! LEAVE IT ALONE! LEAVE IT ALONE! IT"S AN AUTOMATIC DOOR! I"LL CLOSE IT BY MYSELF!
At which feeling extremely embarassed I back away.
Only to have the four kids from the van oggling goggled eyed at me.
And having Kok Ming trying desperately to hide a laugh.

When the Sejarah teacher teaches...

Sej teacher: Imagine that you are this ppl from Tanah Melayu who go get higher education in Asia Barat. Then you come back and you realize how badly the British are treating your ppl, what do you do? You launch a... (supposed to be gerakan nasionalisme)
Khang Wee: JIHAD!!!
Sej teacher: ...

Sej teacher: After the Japanese left, who came back?
Khang Wee: The Japs!
Sej teacher: THEY LEFT ALREADY!
Akmal: I know! Russians!
Sej teacher: ...

Sej teacher: So you must understand that...
Sing Yue laughs out loud.
Sej teacher: Apa hal?
Sing Yue: Look at page 66! GOT NOEL"S FACE IN IT!
We all flip to the page, look down and start laughing nonstop.

Recently I got myself a new quote from the book called Hogsfather...
Me: SQUEAK!
Van: (without missing a beat) Squeakin

Noel stole a packet of wafers from me the other day (correctly put Alison's but still she gave me to eat) and dangled them in front of me. And might I add, HIGHER THAN MY ACTUALY HEIGHT.
And being extremely pathetic, I actually leaped twice like a stupid idiot to get them.
I WAS HUNGRY!!!!
Which later ensued in a battle for the packet of wafers. Because once I got my share and Noel wanted his next share, me Emm and Alison tossed the packet back and front to prevent him from getting them.

When watching Puteri Gunung Ledang... at the love scenes that seems to last a millenia...
Me: Oh gosh... do they really REALLY need to go through all that mushiness AGAIN? I mean we get it we get it. Hang Tuah loves her and she loves her. ENOUGH!
Jas: And everything is so slow motion again... and the music is so...
Me and Jas: SAVE ME!!!

At another love scene...
Me: Saaaaavveeee meeeeeee.... this is getting so..... AHHHHHHH
Jas: You know what? It was amusing in the beginning after a while it just gets...
Me and Jas: SOPPY BEYOND BELIEF! THIS IS GETTING SO LAME...

One by one the boys fell asleep during the movie might I add. It's nice the movie (second best Msian movie next to Sepet) but the plot is too slow. And the fight scene is R I D I C U L O U S

At the end part of the movie, which is really sweet and sad I must admit...
Akmal Muz Jas and me were like craning out heads to see whether Cel was crying.
Cel: WHAT?!!
Ak: Are you crying? Are you crying?
Cel: NO I"M NOT!
Tan: (in a sing song voice) Yes you did! You bring so many tissues!
Cel: No I"m not crying!
Tan: Got
Cel: Don't have
And unfortunately dear friends, we shall never know the truth.

Anyway that's all I can remember from the past week. And again I shall say -

Ttyl till the next time!

Private Emotion

Pssssttttt....

I'd let you in on a little secret.

I'm supposed to be doing my English Oral now.

But I... slacked off for a while.

It's not my fault what! I've been slaving over it for the past hour and a half.

And then I'm supposed to start on my Sejarah soon.

I have such a sad life.

Anyway, just wanted to type out this song (sorry la, if you don't like songs) that I'm listening to right now. It's not half bad... and I like the piano part. Heh.

Private Emotion

Every endless night has a dawning day
Every darkest night has a shining ray
And it shines on you can't you see
You're the only one who can shine for me

It's a private emotion that fills you tonight
And a silence falls between us
As the shadows steal the light
And wherever you may find it
Wherever it may lead
Let your private emotion come to me
Come to me

When your soul is tired and your heart is weak
Do you think of love as one-way street
Well it runs both ways, open up your eyes
Can't you see me here, how can you deny

Every endless night has a dawning day
Every darkest night has a shining ray
It takes a lot to laugh as your tears go by
But you can find me here till your tears run dry

The song's nice because it has nice lyrics. HAHA. Most people like songs for the music. I like it more for the lyrics. This one has a little nice poetic ring to it.

Nyeh nyeh.

I better get back to my oral before Lee Lip, Winston and Vanessa (my oral group mates) come after me at midnight with a huge butcher knife...

Wallflower

Just got back from dinner at some place near Damai.

So, the last night, at about 10.30 I was struck by inspiration to write... a poem. Haha. Don't ask me why. My mind works in strange ways. :P

Or maybe because I was extremely bored. And I remembered this short story I read a few years back. And this short story has remained in my mind ever since then because well, it's just one of the stories that'll stick in my brain always ok?

So, being the plagarizer (is there even such a word?) that I am, I decided to evolve the entire thing into a poem. Can't really remember what the story went like. But anywhoz, in my poem, it's about a girl and a boy.

Warning: Van don't get crazy ideas. This poem is not synonymous with my life story. Far from it. I was just struck by inspiration, may I justify.

Let me explain. Girl's in love with guy. But guy doesn't notice her. :P (Typical love story HAHA) But then one night he asks her to...

HAHA, I'll give you the poem and put you out of your misery.

Btw, read it and tell me whether it's good. Coz I'm suddenly struck by oth inspirations to write some more. COMMENT IN MY BOX AH. So long no more comments.

I'm pathetic I know. :P

Anyway here goes nothing.

I'm opening myself up to public humiliation but who cares... actually I do but that's not the point...

Btw, it does not rhyme safe only the first stanza. After that I got lz. :P

WALLFLOWER by Wong Siaw Hui

The beat's getting slow
And the light's turned on low
I catch your gaze across the floor
Then you shift - in sight no more

The night's slipping away
And you know I can't hold on to it
My hope is all but lost
A smile again - that's all I pray

Don't you know?
I'm gonna be the wallflower again
You seem so faraway -
And yet to my heart, so close
These silent tears are turning me to rust
But I'm too afraid to show -

You're dancing amongst the blossoms;
The pretty lilies of the floor
And I'll be just the tiny flower
Creeping amongst the vines on the wall

My heart is crumbling to dust
I can feel it, I can taste it
Tell me, can a girl dream a dream
Wish a wish and hope a hope?

Don't you know?
I'm gonna be the wallflower again
You seem so faraway -
And yet to my heart, so close
These silent tears are turning me to rust
But I'm too afraid to show -

One dance with you -
Is that too much to ask?
Can't you see, I'm living on the outside
But I'm dying from within

The music ends, my chance is gone
The door invites, the door awaits
But truly, always and forever
My heart belongs to you

Don't you know?
I'm gonna be the wallflower again
You seem so faraway -
And yet to my heart, so close
These silent tears are turning me to rust
But I'm too afraid to show -

An extended hand, a warm invitation
Before your face, I knew your voice
My pulse is racing
My mind - frozen numb

The warmth of your hand
The laugh in your eyes
The music begins and I know for sure -
That this night's gonna last forever -

Don't you know?
I'm gonna be the wallflower again
You seem so close -
And still to my heart, yet closer
These silent tears are turning me to rust
And now I'm not afraid to show -

~Finito~

Yep, that's it. I actually wanted to end it at the stanza when the girl leaves. But then, I realize that I always make sad endings - heh - so I added a few more stanzas.

I know it sucks but still, whatever it is it was still MY inspiration and MY poem... even if the story is a bit ciplak la. HAHA

Oh yeah, as usual, joke of the day:
Me: Aiyah, that Khang very funny. Thinking that Hello Kitty goes with Hello Doggy. (It's Dear Daniel btw)
Kim: (laughs) Yeah I know. He's so stupid. I mean, everyone knows that Hello Kitty goes with Dear Bear.
Me: ...
Talk about a kettle calling another kettle black.

Valentine's Day

HAH...

February the 14th. The day cupid gets a chance to shoot ppl in the butt with love arrows. AHAHAHA...

Anyway, I must say though, this year, there were more valentine gifts in my class than any other year. :D Some ppl's bag's were inundated with flowers. Some people got a hamster named Satan (of which Squirrel is Godfather) Like I said, Squirrel has a very cute grandson ;) (cuter than him at any rate and not as annoying as him too. :P JK LA) Others stuffed their flowers into both mine and Kim's lockers because they wanted to hide their flowers. But I'm not complaining coz that person is my good friend... unless of coz when the flowers rot and stick up my locker. I bet they will in the next two days. Others had secret admirers *cough*

Heh.

Anyway, today was eventful day. And added to the bliss is the fact that tomorrow's Add Maths test is cancelled!! YIPEE! The rest of the week is completely test free. I feel so lucky. Haha. And it was fun seeing ppl get flowers from other ppl esp those who got flowers from an unknown admirer. You know who you are. I ain't giving nth away to those who don't know. :P

Hmm... was listening to this song just now. It's an old song but still it's nice. Lol. It's called Stranded by Jennifer Paige. Too lz to type out the entire song... but these are the lyrics that I consider pretty nice and is stuck in my head.

You know it only breaks my heart
To see you standing in the dark...
I'm too afraid to show...

If it's coming over you
Like it's coming over me
I'm crashing like a tidal wave
That drags me out to sea...
Crashing like a tidal wave
I don't want to be
Stranded...

I can only take so much
These tears are turning me to rust...
I'm too afraid to show...

I don't want to be
Stranded...

Hmm nice song. :P

Oh yeah. Here's the joke of the day:

Me: Eh Khang, you know the girl cartoon kitty is known as Hello Kitty right?
Khang: Yeah.
Me: Well, do you know what's the name of the boy cartoon kitty? (It's Dear Daniel btw)
Khang: I dunno! Hello Doggy?!
Me: ...

The days are passing by
And as I keep this flickering hope
I know that my dream is fast waning
My wish is turning into dust...

Have you ever wished for something
And it never happened?
Instead the opposite happened
In the worst way possible...

The pace of my heart is slowing
But I'm still hoping against hope
I'm still wishing, dreaming
Even as the gap is growing bigger...

Untitled

Okay, okay, Squirrel. This post ain't about you. Not yet anyway. I'll get round to it soon, I think.

:P

Wait, you can't force me to do something that I don't wanna!! HAHAHAHA! There!

Anyway, let me digress...

Yesterday I went visiting like around... umm... 7 houses? And I only got like what 3 angpows!! The horror.

Pfff... though we kept making fun of my frens' little brother. You know, coz he can't understand all those grown up jokes we were cracking. I shall not specify. But anyway, he kept on looking at us with blank gazes and he kept tugging on his oldest sis' shirt wanting to find out what was happening. And his sis kept brushing him off saying, "AIYAH, you are a Kikilala. You won't understand." Get it? Okay fine, if you don't, Kikilala is a kid's brand line of clothes. Get it now? If you don't forget it.

Hmm.. has any of you played basketball against a backdrop of fireworks? If you have never, you should try. It's really really fantastic. And really really pretty too. And it's a really good advantage to snatch the ball away from your opponent because they're standing there gawking at the fireworks. Haha.But the effect is really cool. And really really fantastic, breathtaking...

Oh and I loved playing that backfire game yesterday at Evelyn's house!! It involves a lot of fast reflexes and a lot of "thumb" strength. You're supposed to fire the ball over to your opponents sides (by twisting a knob with your index and thumb) and try as hard as possible to get it to drop into your opponents groove. If you do, you score. Ouch, my thumbs really really hurt today. Ouchie. It feels like there's a huge bruise on each of them.

HAH! I beat Rebecca four times in the four-in-a-row game. HAH! And then I beat her once in the Backfire game! But she beat me once too. BUT overall I won! HAH!!!

Okay, getting carried away right there...

Have you ever felt things backfire on you? (Okay, I am so not talking about the game right now) Seriously, have you ever felt things backfire on you? LIke you planned for something or you banked on somethine happening. And you kept telling yourself that this thing is going to happen to you in such and such a manner. But in the ultimate end, it hits you really hard that your plan has backfired. Because now everything that's happening to you wasn't planned. Instead, everything happening to you is because of yourself. You who had been working in the direction of counting on your plan to work. And now, the realization just hits you really hard that you've been an utter fool and that EVERYTHING that you dreamt of, is blasted into pieces. And you realize that the ultimate fool was yourself. And not the person you was counting on to be the fool.

I'm talking in riddles. Even as I reread that part, I don't even know what I'm saying (logically it makes not much sense doesnt it?) But somehow, that paragraph really really makes sense in terms of my heart.

Sigh...

Woke up today,
Felt hungover.
Then I remember,
What I was thinking of the day before...

Thinking that I was such a fool,
For falling into that same ravine,
That same trap set for idiots,
That trap that I shouldn't have fallen into...

Hadn't falling into such an abyss,
Been enough to keep me from staying away?
Hadn't I been steering myself away from it,
Ever since I fell and hurt myself so badly before?

So why is it that now,
I'm feeling like a total fool?
For not knowing that I turned back to that ravine,
Without me realizing?

The last time I was in that ravine,
It made me ache so bad...
I don't want to feel that pain again,
Then why did I open myself to such pain once more?

The last time I was in that ravine,
I felt like the lowest of low...
Knowing that by the time I got out,
I would be kicking myself for being so stupid.

What's wrong with me...
This wasn't supposed to turn out this way!
Someone else was supposed to fall into that ravine!
Definitely not me!

Then why has the tables turned?
Why has everything backfired?
Why am I now in this huge crevace?
Why am I now the pathetic fool?

Why am I now the one who's reaching out?
Why am I now the one feeling so much grief?
Why am I now the one feeling, feeling...
That I've just betrayed my friendship?

I'm now stuck in this ravine...
My guess is I won't be getting out anytime soon.
But somewhere within me,
I'm still hoping against hope...

Isn't it funny?
That life plays such cruel jokes on us?
Isn't it funny?
That things don't go as planned?

Isn't it downright funny?
That I've fallen into that same ravine?
As I did so many years ago...
Knowing very well that I should not have...

Cruel fate.