This reaks.
The one time I decided to screw up was the one time everyone decided to do the same thing as I did.
I mean, come on -
Just because I made one stupid mistake this one time in my entire life, I get blasted out of the window by ppl -
Exhibit A:
You of all people should know that!! You are a prefect! YOU ARE HEAD GIRL!
You made your parents liars! Admit it!
... Head Girl in disgrace...
OMG! Head Girl getting demerited!
And you call yourself a prefect! What more a red tie!!
Siaw Hui! ADMIT IT! YOU LIED! AND THIS COMING FROM YOU!
Let me tell you all this, once and for all.
I AM COMPLETELY UTTERLY AND PERFECTLY HUMAN! I MAKE MISTAKES JUST LIKE ANYONE ELSE DOES! WHAT SETS ME APART FROM YOU PEOPLE? MY RED TIE? MY BLAZER? MY WHAT? MY ENTIRE PREFECT REGALIA? MY POST?
Am I supposed to be perfect and oh-so-high-and-mighty? Someone who never screws up in life? Someone who always plays by the damn bloody rules? Someone who is always expected to be a role model? Someone who's supposed to run for president? Someone who's not supposed to get demerited? Someone who's supposed to be what?!
I am human, I tell you, human. I'm not some bloody alien from bloody outer space who's higher and superior than all of you! I'm a girl! I'm a student! I AM ME!
I am me! A person! Not Head Girl! Did I ever want to be Head Girl? Did I ever campaign to be Head Girl? Did I ever demand to be Head Girl?
NO I DIDN"T! IT JUST CAME! AND GEE WHIZ, THE ONE TIME I SCREW UP, THE ONE TIME I MAKE A MISTAKE, EVERYONE JUST HAS TO COME AROUND AND BLAST ME ALL THE MORE BECAUSE OF A STUPID, MEAGRE RED TIE!!
Tell me is it fair?
Is it fair for me and the other first-timers who made such a simple mistake? Is it fair for me? Fair for Kim? Fair for Sjane? Fair for Emm? IS IT FAIR WHEN OTH PPL HAVE DONE THE SAME THING FOR COUNTLESS TIMES AND GOTTEN AWAY SCOT-FREE?!!
I know I'm supposed to be a role model. But this one time I screw up, the whole world has to cast its spotlight on me. This really reaks.
I might have just screwed up all my testimonials, as a student and as a prefect, just because of one stupid blunder.
Tell me, Van, can you tell me in my face now that the only expectations that I should have are for myself? Now that you know what the entire world expects of me?
CAN YOU?!
The one time I decided to screw up was the one time everyone decided to do the same thing as I did.
I mean, come on -
Just because I made one stupid mistake this one time in my entire life, I get blasted out of the window by ppl -
Exhibit A:
You of all people should know that!! You are a prefect! YOU ARE HEAD GIRL!
You made your parents liars! Admit it!
... Head Girl in disgrace...
OMG! Head Girl getting demerited!
And you call yourself a prefect! What more a red tie!!
Siaw Hui! ADMIT IT! YOU LIED! AND THIS COMING FROM YOU!
Let me tell you all this, once and for all.
I AM COMPLETELY UTTERLY AND PERFECTLY HUMAN! I MAKE MISTAKES JUST LIKE ANYONE ELSE DOES! WHAT SETS ME APART FROM YOU PEOPLE? MY RED TIE? MY BLAZER? MY WHAT? MY ENTIRE PREFECT REGALIA? MY POST?
Am I supposed to be perfect and oh-so-high-and-mighty? Someone who never screws up in life? Someone who always plays by the damn bloody rules? Someone who is always expected to be a role model? Someone who's supposed to run for president? Someone who's not supposed to get demerited? Someone who's supposed to be what?!
I am human, I tell you, human. I'm not some bloody alien from bloody outer space who's higher and superior than all of you! I'm a girl! I'm a student! I AM ME!
I am me! A person! Not Head Girl! Did I ever want to be Head Girl? Did I ever campaign to be Head Girl? Did I ever demand to be Head Girl?
NO I DIDN"T! IT JUST CAME! AND GEE WHIZ, THE ONE TIME I SCREW UP, THE ONE TIME I MAKE A MISTAKE, EVERYONE JUST HAS TO COME AROUND AND BLAST ME ALL THE MORE BECAUSE OF A STUPID, MEAGRE RED TIE!!
Tell me is it fair?
Is it fair for me and the other first-timers who made such a simple mistake? Is it fair for me? Fair for Kim? Fair for Sjane? Fair for Emm? IS IT FAIR WHEN OTH PPL HAVE DONE THE SAME THING FOR COUNTLESS TIMES AND GOTTEN AWAY SCOT-FREE?!!
I know I'm supposed to be a role model. But this one time I screw up, the whole world has to cast its spotlight on me. This really reaks.
I might have just screwed up all my testimonials, as a student and as a prefect, just because of one stupid blunder.
Tell me, Van, can you tell me in my face now that the only expectations that I should have are for myself? Now that you know what the entire world expects of me?
CAN YOU?!
posted by *~siaw hui~* at 9:41 PM
6 Comments:
hey siaw.. yes it isnt fair.. but then..
nothing is ever fair in this screwed up world of ours =(
JEEZ! n i know how u feel..
ARGH! n my exams are down the drain too.. all cos of this.. AH!
cheer up gal. =(
don worry lar. only 5 marks. or ten. no prob. jus let it be lah. let others tok. cant hurt u if u don listen. jus go deaf for a while. ;) besides, itll blow over in a while. lol
yeah i guess. pff.
and sjane, my bm and sej are dead already so you're not alone.
I know what you mean Siaw, I was just complaining with a fellow prefect that we do just one impulsive thing in our life for once and the whole world points at you while others who have been doing so tons of times don't usually get in trouble. X.x
Life is so unfair ToT
At least it'll still appear as an A in our testimonials. Hopefully we can somehow find ways to get merit points too.
What hurt me more was the look and tone of disappointment Cikgu Anita gave me. X.x
yeah. i had the usually nice ms teo yelling at me at the top of her voice and the look of disappointment she still casts at me whenever she sees me now. it hurts and makes you feel like you're the one who betrayed their trust even if it was an impulsive thing we did. and coz i think of teachers as kind of friends. :P
anyway, on a lighter note, there are merit slips in the library.
and apparently i have access to them coz well, the librarian once offered them to me.
but the question is, if i merit ppl, will it count in the teacher's eyes?
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