Life goes on
Despite circumstances that dampen my spirits -
Despite problems that still haunt me -
Despite the death of someone whose legacy lives on -
Life as I know it goes on.
The days pass more slowly now and thought I've gotten over his death, there is still this hollow feeling that remains, this feeling of loss that has mellowed over the past few hours and days.
It's like - my heart is made up of different pieces. Each piece contains a certain someone that I've met in the path of life; friends, family and anyone who has made such a great impact on my life.
And with his death, one piece of my heart is gone thus the hollow feeling.
But if anything, I grieve here on earth together with the rest of my friends and his family, but in heaven the angels rejoice because he's back home with God.
Things are starting to fall back to normal routine back in church, although there's still the deep sense of loss. But like I said, he's gone to a much better place than the rest of us put together, he's gone to Paradise.
So I shall not attempt to ask God why He took him home with Him but rather, I believe that God has His own timing and His own reasons for bringing him home.
Which reminds me, I have to share something about how he impacted my life tomorrow at my youth fellowship. And for once, I have quite a number of things to share but I have a time constraint of 5 minutes. *pulls face*
If you come to think about it, the year 2005 has been a rocky one. For me I mean. It's been a year of trials and tribulations for me as I battle it out with my peers and schoolmates who condemn me and mock me. But if anything, through it all, I've become a stronger person and has a totally renewed faith in God and His comfort. And through it all, I realize that I've got such a great bunch of friends. There are so many of you that I can't possibly remember to name them all and I'm scared I might miss some of your names out. :P I've learnt in 2005 that you should depend on God when the whole world has turned their back on you; learnt that a bunch of good friends and a loving family can take you places that you've never dreamed of and I've definitely learnt to be more sturdy - even if I acted like a little pathetic, sick and weak fool throughout those times. Even then, my friends and family were there to boost me through and God stood by my side always. It's as if I've come back from a battle and become battle-hardened. Thanks guys for standing by me always... you guys know who you are.
Then 2005 was a year of numerable deaths. It's almost every month that we hear of a death of someone that we know. Like our friend's dad or grandad and the list goes on and on. But I believe that the death that has impacted me the most is the most recent death of my friend's dad.
He has really been a source of inspiration to me. Especially the way he conducted himself throughout those 2 years of illness, always caring for others and always putting others' needs beyond his own. When people were praying for him, he prayed not for himself but for others. When I came to his house just because I had to take a detour and he was tired, he took it upon himself to come out, greet me and inquired after my family's health... eventhough it was painfully obvious that he was weary and in pain. When I was sitting for PMR, he smsed my mum to find out how I was coping when he was lying in a hospital in Singapore undergoing treatment. He invested in plenty of people's lives including me though indirectly, totally selfless and undemanding. And his investments in those lives prospered and for that his legacy continues in his family, his friends, the church, my friends and I. How many times can you meet a man so humble to shove his pain aside just to encourage others and to attend to other's needs? He's been a real blessing to me and I shall never ever regret knowing him and neither shall I forget him. I don't think any of us ever will.
Anyway, I just realized. This blog's going to die for the next week coz I'll be in Hong Kong and China. I'm going to come back and give you all the bird flu!! MUAHAHAHA! Neh, God protect me, I shall not have bird flu. Emma will be away to China too so the blog is really going to die. Sorry blog! We'll have your resurrection soon enough after we come back from holidaying!
Christmas is coming! I'm excited... though this Christmas will have a certain air of solemnity in it because of our loss... All the same, Christmas is coming and I can't wait! Been preparing for it weeks and weeks and it's going to be finally here! Whoot!!
Which reminds me, I have to go and prepare my short speech tomorrow. So, I think I better go now.
Before I leave though, I'll like to leave a cryptic little sentence here that I think many of you won't get what I mean by it... except maybe Kim and Van.
'Tis impossiblé!!!
Despite problems that still haunt me -
Despite the death of someone whose legacy lives on -
Life as I know it goes on.
The days pass more slowly now and thought I've gotten over his death, there is still this hollow feeling that remains, this feeling of loss that has mellowed over the past few hours and days.
It's like - my heart is made up of different pieces. Each piece contains a certain someone that I've met in the path of life; friends, family and anyone who has made such a great impact on my life.
And with his death, one piece of my heart is gone thus the hollow feeling.
But if anything, I grieve here on earth together with the rest of my friends and his family, but in heaven the angels rejoice because he's back home with God.
Things are starting to fall back to normal routine back in church, although there's still the deep sense of loss. But like I said, he's gone to a much better place than the rest of us put together, he's gone to Paradise.
So I shall not attempt to ask God why He took him home with Him but rather, I believe that God has His own timing and His own reasons for bringing him home.
Which reminds me, I have to share something about how he impacted my life tomorrow at my youth fellowship. And for once, I have quite a number of things to share but I have a time constraint of 5 minutes. *pulls face*
If you come to think about it, the year 2005 has been a rocky one. For me I mean. It's been a year of trials and tribulations for me as I battle it out with my peers and schoolmates who condemn me and mock me. But if anything, through it all, I've become a stronger person and has a totally renewed faith in God and His comfort. And through it all, I realize that I've got such a great bunch of friends. There are so many of you that I can't possibly remember to name them all and I'm scared I might miss some of your names out. :P I've learnt in 2005 that you should depend on God when the whole world has turned their back on you; learnt that a bunch of good friends and a loving family can take you places that you've never dreamed of and I've definitely learnt to be more sturdy - even if I acted like a little pathetic, sick and weak fool throughout those times. Even then, my friends and family were there to boost me through and God stood by my side always. It's as if I've come back from a battle and become battle-hardened. Thanks guys for standing by me always... you guys know who you are.
Then 2005 was a year of numerable deaths. It's almost every month that we hear of a death of someone that we know. Like our friend's dad or grandad and the list goes on and on. But I believe that the death that has impacted me the most is the most recent death of my friend's dad.
He has really been a source of inspiration to me. Especially the way he conducted himself throughout those 2 years of illness, always caring for others and always putting others' needs beyond his own. When people were praying for him, he prayed not for himself but for others. When I came to his house just because I had to take a detour and he was tired, he took it upon himself to come out, greet me and inquired after my family's health... eventhough it was painfully obvious that he was weary and in pain. When I was sitting for PMR, he smsed my mum to find out how I was coping when he was lying in a hospital in Singapore undergoing treatment. He invested in plenty of people's lives including me though indirectly, totally selfless and undemanding. And his investments in those lives prospered and for that his legacy continues in his family, his friends, the church, my friends and I. How many times can you meet a man so humble to shove his pain aside just to encourage others and to attend to other's needs? He's been a real blessing to me and I shall never ever regret knowing him and neither shall I forget him. I don't think any of us ever will.
Anyway, I just realized. This blog's going to die for the next week coz I'll be in Hong Kong and China. I'm going to come back and give you all the bird flu!! MUAHAHAHA! Neh, God protect me, I shall not have bird flu. Emma will be away to China too so the blog is really going to die. Sorry blog! We'll have your resurrection soon enough after we come back from holidaying!
Christmas is coming! I'm excited... though this Christmas will have a certain air of solemnity in it because of our loss... All the same, Christmas is coming and I can't wait! Been preparing for it weeks and weeks and it's going to be finally here! Whoot!!
Which reminds me, I have to go and prepare my short speech tomorrow. So, I think I better go now.
Before I leave though, I'll like to leave a cryptic little sentence here that I think many of you won't get what I mean by it... except maybe Kim and Van.
'Tis impossiblé!!!
posted by *~siaw hui~* at 8:52 PM
7 Comments:
oooooooooooooooooh. i think i noe what the last sentence means............. oh wait i don't.. hmmm (does serious thinking..*as if can think)oh i noe...hehe. 2005 was rocky? i kinda liked it. so much conflict under the surface. n so much fun again. set table on fire. broke a few lights. play football in class. laugh non stop during exams. eat in class when no prefects looking...play around at the back. i liked year 2005!
haha... i just said it was rocky. i never said that i didn't like it.
come to think of it, 2005 has its light moments la... but towards the end of the year, things kinda dulled a bit.
hahah! 2005's a great year! Got to experience so many new emotions..made closer bonds with ppl..can't say it's my happiest year of school but still fun! I hope we get to participate in more performances! hehee, yes, I love dressing up!
Gosh... remember Muz stood up before the music ended? HAHA
lol. i accidentally punched sat for real. lol. we ended up talking for a while. knew i should have put on contacts that day. eh, luckily end up doin play rite? otherwise need to do dancing. lol. so damn funny the dancing.
yeah you were noel. LOL i wasn't even involved in the dancing.
siaw hui!!!!! why are you going to the place i love???? i feel so jealous!!!!!
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