Random-ness

Ah... nth to blog actually.

So this is prob gonna be the shortest post in history.

This week has, well, not been the best of all weeks.

And though Chem paper 3 and Bio paper 3 are part of the reason for my misery, I shall not go into them because they're not the main reasons. After all, there's more to life than tests.

Sigh.

This few days, I just feel so frustrated. And angry. And sore. I hate seeing the smug look on someone's face everytime she comes around. As if she's better than me. As if she can write better than me. And no worries ppl, it's no one from our year. So don't get all worked up. Gar, I just can't stand her.

And there's another her I can't stand. And again, not from our year. What I don't get about this person is the fact that she's always always doing something to upset me. She never appreciates me for what I do especially when performing my duty. I mean come on, I worked three hours into the night for that blasted thing! And then what do you do? Throw it away saying you don't agree with what I wrote. Ah, bugger la. Always never want to look at it twice or maybe thrice. Just look once and then keep protesting and toss it aside.

Sorry to sound so vague but then again, I never know who reads this blog.

Ah. Piss me off la those two ppl. One think she's so much better than me (maybe she is but that's besides the point... how can you go around looking so smug in my face?!) and one think she's the queen of the world that doesn't need to appreciate all the little people like me working their butts off. BUGGER LA THE BOTH OF THEM!

Pah. Things that were promised to me would probably not come to pass now. Just because of HER. Yes the supposedly-queen-of-the-world her. Oh to hell with it.

And then, here's the sad part. My aunt in Melb died.

To be honest, I didn't cry my eyeballs out. Because well, I quite expected it. She had cancer. Sorry if you think me THAT heartless but the oth reason is that well, I was never close to her. My brother was probably closer to her because he stayed with her for one year (the 1st year he was in Melb) so he had a right to feel sad.

I mean, I do feel sad and all but again, I've not seen her for like what? 6 years?! Hah. That's what I'm talking about. But go ahead and think me heartless if you like. I have more than enough ppl who are loathing me and despising me right now anyway. It wouldn't hurt if you added on to that number. Bah.

But whatever it is, I'm really lucky that I don't need to fly all the way down to Melb to attend the funeral. I'm sorry that I'm heartless but I mean come on, I would have to miss my exams bah. And my parents think that it's not exactly the best idea for me to fly all the way down, get jet lagged on the way back and HAVE to sit for exams. What more got SPM BM oral coming up again. Sigh. Sjane, remember our group script oh! I doubt she's see this though...

Sigh. All the blogs I know aren't updated. I'm running out of my ol entertainment. But I can't exactly blame those blog owners can I? It's near exams. And we're all working our butts off whether we want to or not. What to do? SPM year mah.

And bugger la, the entrance mark from Trinity to Uni of Melb for Med is 98% Hah. That is impossible la. That's asking me to get like 100 for every subject I take. And believe me not easy eh. Esp since I'm taking subs like Chem, Maths (not that simple as our simple maths oh) English, History of Ideas (political and intellectual views in essay form) and prob Bio or Physics. Hah. You see? 100 for all that? Ah, bugger la. It's impossible. It is really impossible. But then again, if I get less than 98 they may still consider me for a place in Med in Uni of Melb. Like last time my bro's mark was 93 and their securing-place-in-uni-for-sure mark was 95 and he still got the place... though he turned it down and took Engineering instead. But still I have to get at least 80 on my Eng to be able to get into Uni of Melb. So even if I get the required average mark of 98 and I don't get 80 on Eng I can't get in. But then again, how can I get 98 if I didn't get 80 in Eng in the first place? Bahhhhh this whole thing is making me head spin.

And no, don't tell me I can choose another degree. Because I don't think I can do anything besides Med. I mean, can't imagine myself doing smth else like Law or smth. When I do think about what I might be, I'd tell you. Oh wait, I wanna be archeologist. But do you seriously think my parents will let me go gallivanting in Egypt and it's forgotten era of Pharoahs? Hah. I wish.

Sigh. One week from now is my bday. I'm supposed to turn 17 and it's supposed to be some milestone for me.

Instead, it's like my bday isn't even next week. I mean come on, whenever I think about next week, it's like automatically the word EXAMS pop up in my mind. Yep, that's how bad it is.

Though 17 means being able to drive it doesn't mean I'm ALLOWED To drive seeing as Mock and SPM are so near. But MTYP, remind me to go for the theory course for you one day when you're free. At least if I die of boredom, I have someone to accompany me in my "death" ;)

Ahhhhh hate exams.

I DON"T CARE WHETHER YOU'RE MY HOMELAND BUT CHINA! CURSE YOU FOR COMING UP WITH THE STUPID IDIOTIC IDEA OF EXAMS!