Impressions
Oh man.
The holidays are coming to an end.
Right after that we're going to have loads of tests. Exams. Homework. Ah well, what the heck, life's not complete without school for us teens. :P
Wow. Three quarter of the year has passed. And I don't even begin to feel it. It's like I know that I'm in Form Four and yet, it just doesn't seem real. Yeah, funny I know. :P
But I guess it'll really really hit me once the Form Fives take their study leave. Suddenly, I'll start to miss seeing them around. After all, we share the same block. Once they go, I'll only be seeing my form-mates. *shivers* Not that it's bad or anything, it's just that it reminds me that my time to leave is next year. And let's just say, I ain't prepared for it.
You know, this holidays have taught me something valuable.
What you might ask?
Well, I believe I learn a lot about impressions. Impressions that people make about you, impressions that you give others. Sometimes the impressions you make is nice. But sometimes the impressions you make can - well - be utterly wrong.
And that's where misintepretation comes in.
Sigh.
This holidays - no mentioning of names - have really been a time of impressions. Just so you know, some of my youth are leaving, there are new members coming in. And well, it's the prime time to make impressions. Both on those who are still around, on those who are coming in and on those who are leaving.
Problem is, I believe I made wrong impressions, about myself naturally.
Sigh.
I never meant to hurt anyone. Honest, I didn't. But sometimes - as I very well am aware of it - I know that things get outta hand and I get kind of carried away. And in the heat of the moment, I just sometimes - leave the wrong impression on someone.
What wrong impressions?
Trust me. You wouldn't want to know. Seriously, you wouldn't want to know.
Well, a little teaser for you guys if you are that interested. For one, one of the impression I made was one about - hem - a guy. And well, if I'm really lucky - not - that guy might just think that I like him. When I do not. I mean no offence. But hey, I like him a friend. Nothing more, nothing less. And if he gets that impression of me then -
Sigh.
It was just that there was this stupid situation that I got myself in. Then throw in some over-enthusiastic people bent on making wild jokes. And being too sporting for my own good, I join in and then - before you know it the damage is done.
*grimace*
You can ask me, how would I know... mebbe he's not that sensitive. But heck, if he's not paranoid he wouldn't have asked my friend this:
"Hey, how come they suddenly associate me with Siaw Hui?"
Need I say more?
Yikes. And as if that's not bad enough, I got another sucker for you.
I never meant to offend anyone. Never meant to make anyone jealous. Seriously. Never, ever ever. It's just that someone mentions something and then my bestest buddy gets offended. And get this. That something that someone mentions is about me.
And it's a good thing.
Turned really ugly because my friend misinterpreted it.
Well, okay, to explain -
In our youth, we treat each other beyond friends, beyond buddies, beyond pals. As I'm sure my fellow Christian friends would know, the Bible encourages us to treat each other as brothers and sisters in Christ right? Right.
Well, for one, if you read Vanessa's blog, you'll get a hint at what I'm talking about. My whole youth, seriously folks, the whole youth are extremely close, extremely friendly, extremely nice. You can say - we treat each other as real siblings. After all, we are in the church setting, right? Right.
Okay, so you get the setting. The setting where all of us teens call each other "brothers" and "sisters" and treat each other like a real one. Okay, there's nothing freaky about that. In my opinion, it's quite nice to know that you have a "brother" or "sister" you can rely on.
Then the problem starts.
*grimace*
Okay, some "brothers" and "sisters" are closer than others. It's natural right? Even in a family, you get that. It's the same. We are still brothers and sisters. It's just that sometimes you can click with someone better than the other. But the whole concept is still applicable. After all, everyone treats each other like siblings.
So what's the ultimate problem?
Right. The youth leader is an extremely friendly guy who treats everyone like a brother and sister. Ask Vanessa and Jessica, they'll agree with you totally. Now, here comes the hitch.
This guy - who is 8 years older than me by the way so you don't get the wrong impression - has always been one of my closest "brothers" Maybe it's due to the fact that we share a lot of problems together and help each other through it. Maybe it's due to the fact that we laugh at the same ridiculous things. Maybe it's due to the fact that we get along well together.
BUT this guy decides to go and tell one of my friend this:
"You know what? The only person I think truly treats me like a brother and I treat her truly like a sister is Siaw Hui. I mean, the others are cool and all but she's about the only one whom I truly think of as a sister."
And this friend tells my bestest buddy and -
Yeah you got it. She got all offended and affronted. And she told me what this guy said. And she said she was hurt because all along she was treating him as a brother and he never acknowledged her as a sister.
And I try to sort things out.
And I fall flat on my face.
Now she's ranting on and on about how she's always left out of conversations between me and the guy. How he never asks her anything more than, "Are you fine? How's school?" and how he always makes stupid jokes with me.
*whams head down on computer table and closes eyes*
Hey, it's not my fault right? It's not my fault that we click together. And it's not my fault that he said that. Heck, I never told him to say that.
Aigh.
Wrong impressions, can't live with them, can't live without them.
*buries head in hands*
But for once, why can't it be someone else who made the wrong impressions?
For once, why can't it be me who make the right impressions?
I so hate impressions right now.
The holidays are coming to an end.
Right after that we're going to have loads of tests. Exams. Homework. Ah well, what the heck, life's not complete without school for us teens. :P
Wow. Three quarter of the year has passed. And I don't even begin to feel it. It's like I know that I'm in Form Four and yet, it just doesn't seem real. Yeah, funny I know. :P
But I guess it'll really really hit me once the Form Fives take their study leave. Suddenly, I'll start to miss seeing them around. After all, we share the same block. Once they go, I'll only be seeing my form-mates. *shivers* Not that it's bad or anything, it's just that it reminds me that my time to leave is next year. And let's just say, I ain't prepared for it.
You know, this holidays have taught me something valuable.
What you might ask?
Well, I believe I learn a lot about impressions. Impressions that people make about you, impressions that you give others. Sometimes the impressions you make is nice. But sometimes the impressions you make can - well - be utterly wrong.
And that's where misintepretation comes in.
Sigh.
This holidays - no mentioning of names - have really been a time of impressions. Just so you know, some of my youth are leaving, there are new members coming in. And well, it's the prime time to make impressions. Both on those who are still around, on those who are coming in and on those who are leaving.
Problem is, I believe I made wrong impressions, about myself naturally.
Sigh.
I never meant to hurt anyone. Honest, I didn't. But sometimes - as I very well am aware of it - I know that things get outta hand and I get kind of carried away. And in the heat of the moment, I just sometimes - leave the wrong impression on someone.
What wrong impressions?
Trust me. You wouldn't want to know. Seriously, you wouldn't want to know.
Well, a little teaser for you guys if you are that interested. For one, one of the impression I made was one about - hem - a guy. And well, if I'm really lucky - not - that guy might just think that I like him. When I do not. I mean no offence. But hey, I like him a friend. Nothing more, nothing less. And if he gets that impression of me then -
Sigh.
It was just that there was this stupid situation that I got myself in. Then throw in some over-enthusiastic people bent on making wild jokes. And being too sporting for my own good, I join in and then - before you know it the damage is done.
*grimace*
You can ask me, how would I know... mebbe he's not that sensitive. But heck, if he's not paranoid he wouldn't have asked my friend this:
"Hey, how come they suddenly associate me with Siaw Hui?"
Need I say more?
Yikes. And as if that's not bad enough, I got another sucker for you.
I never meant to offend anyone. Never meant to make anyone jealous. Seriously. Never, ever ever. It's just that someone mentions something and then my bestest buddy gets offended. And get this. That something that someone mentions is about me.
And it's a good thing.
Turned really ugly because my friend misinterpreted it.
Well, okay, to explain -
In our youth, we treat each other beyond friends, beyond buddies, beyond pals. As I'm sure my fellow Christian friends would know, the Bible encourages us to treat each other as brothers and sisters in Christ right? Right.
Well, for one, if you read Vanessa's blog, you'll get a hint at what I'm talking about. My whole youth, seriously folks, the whole youth are extremely close, extremely friendly, extremely nice. You can say - we treat each other as real siblings. After all, we are in the church setting, right? Right.
Okay, so you get the setting. The setting where all of us teens call each other "brothers" and "sisters" and treat each other like a real one. Okay, there's nothing freaky about that. In my opinion, it's quite nice to know that you have a "brother" or "sister" you can rely on.
Then the problem starts.
*grimace*
Okay, some "brothers" and "sisters" are closer than others. It's natural right? Even in a family, you get that. It's the same. We are still brothers and sisters. It's just that sometimes you can click with someone better than the other. But the whole concept is still applicable. After all, everyone treats each other like siblings.
So what's the ultimate problem?
Right. The youth leader is an extremely friendly guy who treats everyone like a brother and sister. Ask Vanessa and Jessica, they'll agree with you totally. Now, here comes the hitch.
This guy - who is 8 years older than me by the way so you don't get the wrong impression - has always been one of my closest "brothers" Maybe it's due to the fact that we share a lot of problems together and help each other through it. Maybe it's due to the fact that we laugh at the same ridiculous things. Maybe it's due to the fact that we get along well together.
BUT this guy decides to go and tell one of my friend this:
"You know what? The only person I think truly treats me like a brother and I treat her truly like a sister is Siaw Hui. I mean, the others are cool and all but she's about the only one whom I truly think of as a sister."
And this friend tells my bestest buddy and -
Yeah you got it. She got all offended and affronted. And she told me what this guy said. And she said she was hurt because all along she was treating him as a brother and he never acknowledged her as a sister.
And I try to sort things out.
And I fall flat on my face.
Now she's ranting on and on about how she's always left out of conversations between me and the guy. How he never asks her anything more than, "Are you fine? How's school?" and how he always makes stupid jokes with me.
*whams head down on computer table and closes eyes*
Hey, it's not my fault right? It's not my fault that we click together. And it's not my fault that he said that. Heck, I never told him to say that.
Aigh.
Wrong impressions, can't live with them, can't live without them.
*buries head in hands*
But for once, why can't it be someone else who made the wrong impressions?
For once, why can't it be me who make the right impressions?
I so hate impressions right now.
posted by *~siaw hui~* at 11:26 AM
4 Comments:
wow..i dono how to put this in a gentler way but, just to confirm, your friend wants equal attention from him?
hmm....but...(you know I'm hesitant to say this) IMO, I kinda think he shouldn't have said it. okay, i'm gonna zip it now cause I have a tendency of making matters worse. Sorry if I offended you or others here, you know, by giving wrong impressions. All will lighten up in the end :D
:)
Yeah actually, van? I kinda agree with you. He shouldn't have said that. Well not out loud to my friend. But like things go, we can't take back what we say right? In the heat of a moment... sometimes you say smth that wasn't meant to hurt.
And thanks guys. You too emma.
calm down woman, i think maybe u three need a talk man. need to sort things out face to face. hope it helps la. but u should probably sort this prob ASAP before it gets more serious la. but friends are for life. if they still refuse to talk things out, they're not worth your friendship. at least you've tried your best. don't get so worked up. calm down. =)
Hey cas, thanks.
Umm... well, things are starting to get better I guess. But then again, haven't exactly seen the guy yet. The girl is fine with me. BUT when she sees the guy, she starts to ignore him totally even if he's like 1cm away from her only. They like tidak menghiraukan each other. Breaks my heart to see her like that la. After all, both of them are my good friends.
And problem is, I think that guy tak even perasan that she's in this problem.
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