I can't help but think: Is the world trying to burst my bubble?
As in of this moment? As of this moment when I'm feeling so confused?!
Gahhhhhh...
Guess what folks?
In ten years time (yes ten years time) the country is going to be overflooded with drs.
Yep, no preventing that fact now eh? WELL SINCE THE BLOODY MMA (MALAYSIAN MEDICAL ASSOCIATION) AND THE GOVERNMENT AND THE PRIVATE SECTORS HAVE ALREADY RELEASED FIGURES ON HOW MANY DOCTORS TO PATIENTS RATIO ALREADY! I HAVE NO WAY OF ESCAPING THE FACT THAT MALAYSIA IS GONNA BE INUNDATED BY DOCTORS!!
Oh whoopeedeedee. I am SO happy right now.
NOT!
Let me tell you the situation. Now we have a 1:3600 doctor to patient ratio. As in ten years time the figure is gonna go up by a hell lot which is 1:400 HAH! That means we'd get TOO MANY DOCTORS IN THIS FREAKING COUNTRY!
Hmm? Like THAT"S not bad enough...
So maybe I can leave the country you know...it won't be too bad CONSIDERING HOW DIRTY POLICTICS ARE HERE AND THEY"RE GETTING DIRTIER BY THE SECOND!
Then what about my mum's clinic? Yeah what about that.
My mum hopes... wait scratch that... WANTS me to take over the clinic IF I do become a doctor. But I can see the hope in her eyes when she tells me that the clinic is at the ready for me.
So I'm beginning to think: Do I want to be a doctor for my mum's sakes or mine? Do I do it because I want to keep her hopes living or because of my own passion?
I know my passion lies in helping people, very sick people, helpless people. I mean oh come on (go ahead and laugh hadiddlyhaha) I cry when I see pictures of abortions. Well not the boohoo hoo cry but tears. And when I see how CERTAIN doctors in the country treat sick people who APPARENTLY ARE NOT WORTH BEING ON THEIR OPERATING TABLE COZ OF THEIR REPUTATIONS I feel so pissed that I feel like asking Al (who's bound to be a lawyer anyway) to come in a sue their pants off.
Gah...
But you see helping people doesn't need to make you a doc. You can be a social worker, a radiographer... stuff like that. So, main question is: Do I want to be a doc?
A doc who will return to Kch and suddenly find that there's NO job at all for her.
And in the minute chance that there IS a job for her, she won't be making a hell of a living because the competition gets tougher. So for all you know, doctors in the future won't be making HELL LOTS of money anymore. I mean look at that ratio! It leapt up by like what?! Gahhhh...
And in the future, doctors will get sued more often. Pah. I don't wanna get dragged into court if I accidentally mistreated a patient I wanted to help!
And... and... If I don't get into Melb Uni for Med then I'd prob have to try Monash. If still can't I'm coming back to KL to IMU. Yeah fall back plans are foolproof aren't they?
WELL APPARENTLY THEY"RE NOT! WANNA KNOW WHY?!
Because apparently, ALL M"SIAN MEDICAL COLLEGES ARE NOT RECOGNIZED BY ANY PART OF THE WORLD WHICH IN TURN MAKE M'SIANS THEMSELVES TO NOT TRUST AN MBBS FROM A LOCAL UNI! HAH!
So then how ler? If I do graduate from KL, and if I want to do a specialist degree in let's say Spore to gain experience, I am gonna get booted out before I even set foot in their hospital.
Gahhhhhhh...
And then there's the fact that I haven't dared to tell my mum. Because the last time I gave her a vague idea of it she started frowning...
You see, when I become a doctor, I want to work in a hospital. Not a clinic. Which means that I have about like 10% interest of taking over me mum's place.
I'm not being ungrateful I ain't! It's just that...
In the clinic, the machines have to be bought. Therefore, they're limited. And then you treat normal diseases like flu colds and all that. It's so... NORMAL. There's nothing thrilling. Even if sometimes you get out of the norm cases, it's too much and you have to send them to hosp or some better equipped clinic because you can't treat them because either you cannot afford to stock the specific type of drugs or coz you can't provide test results for them.
But the hospital... ahhh that's a diff ball game.
It's like I don't know... between hospitals and clinics, it's HOSPITAL that rings out at me more. I just don't know why...
But it's like a hospital is in it's own world. It's in a class of it's own. I mean yeah sure long hours. And keeping you awake 24 7 for a call that might or might not come. But the thrill is there. The excitement is there.
You get out of the norm cases. You get to keep your brain young by diagnosing those cases. Even if my IQ for stuff like these isn't exactly wonderfully high but I mean you get to work on a case with other doctors. Brainstorm, contribute. It's so cool. And not only that, you don't need to do all those filthy accounting paperwork you do when you're privatized. You leave that to Admin and you go out there and do what A DOCTOR is supposed to do. And you get to use machines that do not cost you a cent! And you get MORE machines to use!
And you get to diagnose cooler cases. And you get to read more stuff to keep you in touch with the medical world so that you are kept up to date about latest diseases. So who cares that there will be longer hours? It'd be cool as it is to wake up, feel adrenaline pumping through your veins when you're dealing with something that might mean life and death. Okay, so maybe I won't want to be the head surgeon or smth but still... you're there fighting for something so hard that you will forget your sleep eventually eventhough your head is pounding.
And besides, you'd have tons of doctor friends that it'd make up for the lonely environment in the clinic when you only have nurses and your patients.
And a hospital is a world on its own! I mean have you seen hospitals in KL? Or SPore? It's like OMG. They have little gift shops. They have Coffee Bean. They have a little world on their own! You can practically live there and not complain. And most hospitals in those places are near food outlets so it's like you don't even need to go home..
Oh wait, I just realized I'm ranting.
Wish my mum could see that.
She still thinks a clinic is the best thing a doctor can get. I don't blame her. It is good.
But to work in a hospital... it'd be wow. Interesting. Something that keeps you on the go.
Or am I fantasizing again? Oh gawd. I am deprived of sleep and mind thanks to Mock. And I haven't even finished my Form 4 Physics. Gawd...
And besides, hospitals will be better if I want to be a specialist.. the ultimate goal in my life. If I can still reach it considering all the bubbles that have burst in the past few days.
And will I ever get to return to Kch to work? Where all my old time friends will be?
And then there's the fact that I have to tell my mum that eventhough I do Med I might not want to work in clinics...
And the bubble goes POP! in Siaw Hui's face.
Darn.
As in of this moment? As of this moment when I'm feeling so confused?!
Gahhhhhh...
Guess what folks?
In ten years time (yes ten years time) the country is going to be overflooded with drs.
Yep, no preventing that fact now eh? WELL SINCE THE BLOODY MMA (MALAYSIAN MEDICAL ASSOCIATION) AND THE GOVERNMENT AND THE PRIVATE SECTORS HAVE ALREADY RELEASED FIGURES ON HOW MANY DOCTORS TO PATIENTS RATIO ALREADY! I HAVE NO WAY OF ESCAPING THE FACT THAT MALAYSIA IS GONNA BE INUNDATED BY DOCTORS!!
Oh whoopeedeedee. I am SO happy right now.
NOT!
Let me tell you the situation. Now we have a 1:3600 doctor to patient ratio. As in ten years time the figure is gonna go up by a hell lot which is 1:400 HAH! That means we'd get TOO MANY DOCTORS IN THIS FREAKING COUNTRY!
Hmm? Like THAT"S not bad enough...
So maybe I can leave the country you know...it won't be too bad CONSIDERING HOW DIRTY POLICTICS ARE HERE AND THEY"RE GETTING DIRTIER BY THE SECOND!
Then what about my mum's clinic? Yeah what about that.
My mum hopes... wait scratch that... WANTS me to take over the clinic IF I do become a doctor. But I can see the hope in her eyes when she tells me that the clinic is at the ready for me.
So I'm beginning to think: Do I want to be a doctor for my mum's sakes or mine? Do I do it because I want to keep her hopes living or because of my own passion?
I know my passion lies in helping people, very sick people, helpless people. I mean oh come on (go ahead and laugh hadiddlyhaha) I cry when I see pictures of abortions. Well not the boohoo hoo cry but tears. And when I see how CERTAIN doctors in the country treat sick people who APPARENTLY ARE NOT WORTH BEING ON THEIR OPERATING TABLE COZ OF THEIR REPUTATIONS I feel so pissed that I feel like asking Al (who's bound to be a lawyer anyway) to come in a sue their pants off.
Gah...
But you see helping people doesn't need to make you a doc. You can be a social worker, a radiographer... stuff like that. So, main question is: Do I want to be a doc?
A doc who will return to Kch and suddenly find that there's NO job at all for her.
And in the minute chance that there IS a job for her, she won't be making a hell of a living because the competition gets tougher. So for all you know, doctors in the future won't be making HELL LOTS of money anymore. I mean look at that ratio! It leapt up by like what?! Gahhhh...
And in the future, doctors will get sued more often. Pah. I don't wanna get dragged into court if I accidentally mistreated a patient I wanted to help!
And... and... If I don't get into Melb Uni for Med then I'd prob have to try Monash. If still can't I'm coming back to KL to IMU. Yeah fall back plans are foolproof aren't they?
WELL APPARENTLY THEY"RE NOT! WANNA KNOW WHY?!
Because apparently, ALL M"SIAN MEDICAL COLLEGES ARE NOT RECOGNIZED BY ANY PART OF THE WORLD WHICH IN TURN MAKE M'SIANS THEMSELVES TO NOT TRUST AN MBBS FROM A LOCAL UNI! HAH!
So then how ler? If I do graduate from KL, and if I want to do a specialist degree in let's say Spore to gain experience, I am gonna get booted out before I even set foot in their hospital.
Gahhhhhhh...
And then there's the fact that I haven't dared to tell my mum. Because the last time I gave her a vague idea of it she started frowning...
You see, when I become a doctor, I want to work in a hospital. Not a clinic. Which means that I have about like 10% interest of taking over me mum's place.
I'm not being ungrateful I ain't! It's just that...
In the clinic, the machines have to be bought. Therefore, they're limited. And then you treat normal diseases like flu colds and all that. It's so... NORMAL. There's nothing thrilling. Even if sometimes you get out of the norm cases, it's too much and you have to send them to hosp or some better equipped clinic because you can't treat them because either you cannot afford to stock the specific type of drugs or coz you can't provide test results for them.
But the hospital... ahhh that's a diff ball game.
It's like I don't know... between hospitals and clinics, it's HOSPITAL that rings out at me more. I just don't know why...
But it's like a hospital is in it's own world. It's in a class of it's own. I mean yeah sure long hours. And keeping you awake 24 7 for a call that might or might not come. But the thrill is there. The excitement is there.
You get out of the norm cases. You get to keep your brain young by diagnosing those cases. Even if my IQ for stuff like these isn't exactly wonderfully high but I mean you get to work on a case with other doctors. Brainstorm, contribute. It's so cool. And not only that, you don't need to do all those filthy accounting paperwork you do when you're privatized. You leave that to Admin and you go out there and do what A DOCTOR is supposed to do. And you get to use machines that do not cost you a cent! And you get MORE machines to use!
And you get to diagnose cooler cases. And you get to read more stuff to keep you in touch with the medical world so that you are kept up to date about latest diseases. So who cares that there will be longer hours? It'd be cool as it is to wake up, feel adrenaline pumping through your veins when you're dealing with something that might mean life and death. Okay, so maybe I won't want to be the head surgeon or smth but still... you're there fighting for something so hard that you will forget your sleep eventually eventhough your head is pounding.
And besides, you'd have tons of doctor friends that it'd make up for the lonely environment in the clinic when you only have nurses and your patients.
And a hospital is a world on its own! I mean have you seen hospitals in KL? Or SPore? It's like OMG. They have little gift shops. They have Coffee Bean. They have a little world on their own! You can practically live there and not complain. And most hospitals in those places are near food outlets so it's like you don't even need to go home..
Oh wait, I just realized I'm ranting.
Wish my mum could see that.
She still thinks a clinic is the best thing a doctor can get. I don't blame her. It is good.
But to work in a hospital... it'd be wow. Interesting. Something that keeps you on the go.
Or am I fantasizing again? Oh gawd. I am deprived of sleep and mind thanks to Mock. And I haven't even finished my Form 4 Physics. Gawd...
And besides, hospitals will be better if I want to be a specialist.. the ultimate goal in my life. If I can still reach it considering all the bubbles that have burst in the past few days.
And will I ever get to return to Kch to work? Where all my old time friends will be?
And then there's the fact that I have to tell my mum that eventhough I do Med I might not want to work in clinics...
And the bubble goes POP! in Siaw Hui's face.
Darn.
posted by *~siaw hui~* at 10:59 AM
5 Comments:
If all else fails, you can always become a doctor in Singapore. They open their arms to smart people and they need doctors because they want more medical tourists to come to Singapore. Plus, the hospitals there are damn good and pay's high. There are mini-trains in the hospital that carry medicines from floor to floor. And when you visit the hospital and register your name, you will be told to go to a different part of the hospital nad your name will be flashing on an electronic billboard even b4 you're halfway there. Very good systems there. As for good old Kuching, not much advanced tech! But if you fancy working here, a clinic of your own might be nice. After all, you get to determine your own working time. As for the huge increase in doctors, it is inevitable. But for those whose passion is medicine, just go for it. And I have a 5-page passage on doctors, it you'd care to have a look. =)
Maybe you should sit down and have a heart to heart talk with your parents, let her know what you want and think.
Or maybe you could expand her clinic into a hospital haha okay, not funny =P
And who says that you don't have a wonderfully high IQ?? You have a wonderfully high IQ!
Okay, back to the point, do well in you Mock (which incidentally, is more important than SPM if you plan to go overseas to study) and your SPM first, then take your time to think about it.
i said wad i said. n only u noe wad i said. so im not gonna repeat wad i said. i still stick to wad i said. i did like wad i said. the question is, can u remember wad was it i said?
noel are you trying to confuse me? lol.
to aidan, WHAT FIVE PAGE ARTICLE?!
to anna, yeah, the whole thing that reaks is that our mock is more important. and i haven't exactly gotten down to hard core studying. considering the fact that some form 4s keeps putting installation nights and what not so late in the year. pah!!
I'll photostate the article for you. You'll find it pretty useful, that's for sure. =)
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