Reminscence

Time flies by so fast.

It seems only like yesterday when I was starting out in Form Four.

And look at me now. I'm on the verge of entering Form Five.

I'm on the verge of leaving school.

You know, the other day, Emma and I were looking at the circular. And we were like looking at the school calender for next year. And there was the date for the last day of school for 2006.

And I went: Hey Emma, you know what? On this date, *jabs date of prize giving day of 2006* we won't even be here.

-Silence-

Emm: *wistfully* Yeah, I guess it's going to be our last prize giving day this year. After this *jabs date* we're going to leave the school for good. And never come back for the school year of 2007.

And when Kim and I were staring at the Form Five individual pics in the sch mag and going: Wow, they all look sooooo good.

-Silence-

Then Kim says: That's going to be us next year.

I take a look at her and go: It's not time for me to grow up and get out of here. But I have to.

I've just come to realize. I just finished my last school final exams. Next year, there won't be any more FOURTH TERM paper. There'll only be the big black words of SIJIL PELAJARAN MALATSIA 2006 staring back at me.

Time passes so fast... Form Four is ending. I don't want it to end. Next year is going to be one hell of a frenzy. Tests, assignments and so on.

I hate this. I want to stay behind. I don't want to grow up. I don't want to leave school and leave all my friends behind. I've grown to know and love my school and all my friends in 13 years.

13 years... I can't believe I've been in Lodge for that long. Since I was barely out of my diapers to where I am today, complete with tie and all. 13 years... it doesn't feel like that long.

I still remember snatching toys from MTYP when I was a kid. I still remember screaming my head off because I was afraid of coming down from the jungle gym right after I climbed up. Lol...

I still remember us playing congkak. I still remember Kim tying up her hair in a fountain. :D I still remember Chin Boon being swung on the doorframe by Cikgu Jiew. :O

I still remember MTYP being accidentally shoved down onto the cement when Kok Ming collided with her so hard that she started bleeding (though I can't remember where she was injured) I remember when the stupid idiot of a bird pooped on my hand when it was in mid-air when I was dutying as a Primary Three prefect.

I still remember UPSR and how I thought I was going to die from the horror. I still remember my first elation when I obtained my first straight As for my first public exam. I still remember Camp Permai and its horrors and joys...

Then time flew... time flew not caring whether I wanted it to or not...

Then it was Form One with all the competition... and all the backstabbing...

Then it was Form Two...

Then it was Form Three... PMR... how I thought life and my studies would never get harder than PMR.

Then the KL trip where we lived and partied non-stop, believing that time and the world would stop for us.

Then Form Four came. I wanted to go back to Form Three. I remember wanting and wanting so much for Form Four to just go away.

And now it finally is. Now it finally is.

One more year, guys, and then I'll have to say goodbye to Lodge for the very last time.

Gawd, I feel like crying. I know I'm a tad too emotional. But I can't help it.

Gawd, gawd, I really feel like crying. One more year then I'll say goodbye to friends I've known since I was in diapers.

Form Five is on its way. Form Four is going to be long gone, dead and buried.

I don't want to grow up. Not just yet. I want to wallow in my memories, just want time to slow down for me until I'm ready to move on.

I want the year 2005 to stay on... until I want 2006 to come.

But then again, life never gives you what you want.