I bloody want out

I want out from this.

I just want this thing to end, right here right now.

I want my life to go back to normal.

I want to wake up from this nightmare and believe that I'm safe again.

I want to know why things happen to me like this.

I'm weak, pathetic, I know. I'm not afraid to admit.

I want to go back to my serene life.

I want to run away from all this, no matter what route that has to be taken.

I want to break down and not live behind a facade of composure.

I want to cry my heart out and just lie unconcious till this entire thing ends.

I want to curl up, pretend that I could just disappear into thin air.

I want to be another person, so that I can say, "Siaw Hui, don't worry about it."

I want to lie down, close my eyes and let this all go passing by.

I want this pain, this misery, this hurt, this betrayal to end.

I want the world to stop for me.

I want to know who are my true friends.